Tag: depression

I Just Don’t Care about Working Out

I Just Don’t Care about Working Out
I wait until the last minute to do anything and everything. I wrote a piece for a website that I greatly admire and it was actually accepted. I was so happy when it was published, but I still haven’t sent them an invoice for the piece. Maybe I think that I don’t deserve the money... Read more »

When Depression Begins with a Story

Last night, I dreamt that I was on the run from the police. I murdered someone and then fled the scene of the crime. I ran and ran until I could no longer hide. I eventually returned to my house and was greeted by a police car in the driveway. The other night, I dreamt... Read more »

Waiting for Change Now that I Feel Mentally Stable

When I’m bored, I fantasize about the future and the different career options that I could choose. This mainly involves perusing the websites of various graduate schools and imagining myself in that profession. I envision myself as a school librarian, a globetrotting journalist, or a YA fiction writer. I moved back home with my parents... Read more »

Why I’m Glad I’m Here to Celebrate My Birthday after Two Overdoses in a Year

Today is my birthday and also the beginning of National Suicide Prevention Week. It’s 5am and the house is quiet. My parents and brother are sound asleep while I type this in the dark. As I reflect on the past year, I realize that I’ve been through a lot, but I’m so happy that I’m... Read more »

My Journal about Managing my Mental Illness with Medication

I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for ten years, and I’ve struggled with consistently taking medication for just as long. It isn’t that I suddenly start to feel better, think that I’m cured, and flush my meds down the toilet. The issue is that I often feel that I’m not getting better, so I give... Read more »

An Interview with Comedian Sam Grittner

Sam Grittner, a writer and stand-up comedian, recently wrote a moving piece, “Dying to Live,” about life after a suicide attempt. I reached out to ask him a few questions about sharing his story and being in recovery. How did it feel to share your story online? Was the reaction what you expected it to... Read more »

The Comment About My Depression That Bothered Me

Trigger warning: self-harm Ten years ago, the summer after I graduated from high school, I should have been looking forward to going to college in the fall. I finally would be on my own, away from the confines of my all girls Catholic high school. It would be a fresh start, a chance to reinvent... Read more »

Mental Illness is Stigmatized When Suicide Defines a Character

I recently watched a movie and a BuzzFeed video that were both about suicide, but refrained from showing the point of view of the person who died by suicide and instead focused on the people who were affected by the death. The movie, Joshy, shows the emotional toll of suicide on the people who loved... Read more »

A Letter to Myself When I’m Depressed

Dear Bridget, It’s feeling ok, depression managed Bridget. I know that you’re in a really dark place right now and you feel like you can’t turn to anyone. I know that you feel like everyone hates you and that you hate yourself. But you need to gather every bit of energy that you can muster... Read more »

Transitioning to a Lower Level of Care for Mental Illness

Since June, I’ve been spending several mornings each week in group therapy sessions as part of an Intensive Outpatient Program (IOP) for anxiety and depression. On Friday, I was told that I would be discharged from IOP on Monday. I was uncertain if I would be ready to transition to a lower level of care... Read more »