Writing about cancer is HARD.

I haven’t blogged in so long that I’m not sure I even have the right to call myself a blogger.

When I was diagnosed with Stage III melanoma 3 1/2 years ago, I decided that it would not have happened for nothing; that I would try to educate others so that they wouldn’t end up walking down melanoma road. But walking down this road is not easy, and the last few months have been anything BUT. I’ve been dealing with some pretty serious medical issues because of the cancer and the surgeries, and I just needed a break I guess.

A pity party or two have been thrown (turns out I’m pretty good at feeling sorry for myself sometimes). It’s odd because I hear from people all the time how strong they think I am; or how brave. But I’m not.  I don’t go through all of this because I want to. I do it because I’m straight up trying to stay alive. So, really…I’m just doing what I HAVE to because I’m not going anywhere. Not for a long time if I have anything to say about it.

Cancer is stressful, and not just on me.  It stresses my family and friends and co-workers. Nobody needs that. Life is tough enough already.

Anyway! I am plugging along and beginning to feel better after those 2 major surgeries in October and November, and the resulting blood clots and pulmonary embolism. I’m honestly starting to feel like myself again, and that’s wonderful.

So, in the next few weeks I’m shifting my focus to the little ones, and their cancer battles. I’ll be shaving my head for St. Baldrick’s with some pretty awesome friends, and MAYBE my granddaughter.  We’ll see how she’s feeling that day. I’m sure not going to pressure her.

This will be my second time as a St. Baldrick’s shavee, and I’m REALLY excited. Last year I got to see brothers (little boys about 4 and 6) on stage. Two little boys, one who had just had his final chemo treatment and was doing well. And he got to shave his brother’s head. How cool is THAT?

I promise not to disappear for 2 months again. I’ve been slacking, but getting the word out about melanoma is too important to be a slacker.

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