By A Comeaux
There’s a lot on my canvas today. Please bear with me as I expound, decompress and articulate the current condition of my heart in its truest form.
A much-needed venting session with my bestie ensued a self-reflective ode to how maturity and honesty has given me a confidence and self-love I was devoid of previously.
There have been a few losses and great gains that’s given me this well-earned sense of clarity. In the recent season, I’ve taken some of the biggest risks yet professionally while just shy of a year ago I would’ve said the same thing. I’m growing. I’m becoming stronger in the convictions within my spirit. Today, I’m bolder than I was last year because I tried some things, some of them worked and others failed miserably. Great losses. I survived my failures because I approached them with the same chin up that I held with my wins.
Take that in.
Honesty within self is the most important piece to my peace.
I had to hold myself accountable before doing so with others. I had to ask myself how I came to be in the positions I held. What role did I play in this production? There were times this answer revealed ugly truths about me. My dark parts that are easier omitted when distracted by others were the very pieces I had to collect.
Now don’t get me wrong, I didn’t plan this or even feel I wanted this to happen now, but looking back I’m grateful for the evolution. I’m grateful I can tell you my truth in hopes you’ll stick around but just as fine if you leave. That’s because I want you to know who I am when you say you ‘like’ me or love me.
The reason a lot of us can’t recognize love is because we have not given the world a true picture of us.
Who is this man talking to when he says he loves you when you have not given him an honest picture? Getting to the root of ourselves, peeling back our own layers allows us to know who we are and what we really want.
Honoring my own truth will not allow me to listen to lies.
I can’t operate in a relationship built on a fallacy when I’m serving from a place of truth and integrity.
In my self-check, I search my intentions, my desires and expectations and if these elements are not pure and fruitful, I remove myself. Simple.
I’m A Comeaux and today my honesty rules. I require reciprocated respect and love is welcomed.
A Comeaux is the writer, speaker and actor who poetically paints pictures of life and love with a paradoxical perspective. Follow her on Twitter @KCOSpoke.
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