You deserve it!

There are two types of people in this world… The distasteful and plain eaters that hate mayonnaise and the superior individuals who enjoy the good flavor and taste of the condiment. 

I hate to say this, but that statement has absolutely nothing to do with today’s blog content. I just truly will never understand those who despise mayonnaise. 

Anyway, I am a journaler. I know that isn’t a word, but that is what I am going to call myself anyway. I know this probably shocks none of you, but whether I am having a good or bad day, whether nothing happens in my life or something drastic occurs, I write it all down. 

I journal for numerous reasons. First, we all know I love to write and I love words. I think that they are so powerful and important. Second, it helps me work through my thoughts and feelings regarding whatever is going on in my life. And third, life moves at such a fast pace that the little things fall between the cracks and you tend to only remember the bigger more prominent moments. This way with journaling you have your life and feelings documented. 

Regarding the third point as to why I journal, it isn’t often that I read my previous entries regarding the moments in my life. I normally just flip the page and continue writing onward. Yet, tonight I took a step back. 

Why? Well if I am going, to be honest, it wasn’t because of anything important. I simply was getting frustrated with how one of the previous pages wasn’t laying correctly in the notebook and was causing other pages to become wrinkly. As I angrily turned back to that page to fix my frustration, I realized what entry it was. Even though I only wrote it six months ago, it seemed like it was written in a different lifetime, by a different person.

I read it over again, and again, and again. Not because it was interesting, but because the worlds on the page were so powerful. 

The entry itself was not anything of substance regarding big life events. It wasn’t an important day in my life and nothing crucial happened. However, the words that I wrote were filled with such feelings regarding an aspect of my life. At that time I was so angry. Those thoughts and feelings are so completely different from how I am feeling right now. It was almost like a complete 180. Reading this change in perspective compared to how I have been feeling kind of felt paralyzing in a way. It was most definitely a shift in perspective. 

Two things happened after I read this journal entry for the 14th time. The first being that I added a new reason I love journaling to my list. Documenting your thoughts and feelings throughout different elements of your life gives you perspective. You get to watch yourself grow and change and develop through your own words. And the second being, I realized that I found something I didn’t know what I was even looking for. 

At this point, you are all probably like, cool Sam you love to journal, why does this matter to any of us? Well duh, obviously I have a life lesson in here that I am going to share with all of you! 

*Que the figurative drumroll please!*

Sometimes we all just need to take a second to take a step back. Don’t let the pace of life and society run you ragged. Give yourself the few moments that you need to make sure that you are solid in your decision-making and are confident in the actions that you are taking in your life.

Reading back and seeing how drastically my thoughts had changed was extremely eye-opening for me. It forced me to take a step back and look at the situation from a different angle. I saw how much had changed, how much I had grown, and how the circumstances were different. Yet, I also saw how I was ignoring some elements and not completely prioritizing myself as I had been previously. 

This moment of reflection has already led to some change and will only continue to help me better myself. 

So basically, just be active and present in your life. Don’t let it get away from you. Give yourself the time that you need to make sure you are living the life that you are wanting to live. For me, that is giving myself 20 minutes before I go to bed to write in my journal. For you, it might be going on a car ride with the windows down or going on a walk through your neighborhood. I don’t care what it is, but do what you need to do to find the time to be present for yourself. 

You deserve it! 

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