Tag: love

New Year, Old Memories

Sometimes you hear words you wish you could unhear. You ask someone a question, praying for an answer you know you won’t get. And then, as soon as you get the answer you weren’t hoping for…your mind fills. Every memory. Each moment. The good. The awful. The hope. The mistakes. Every awkward encounter since. How... Read more »

That's what was missing last time

It’s tough to battle all the insecurities that came from relationships past when you’re trying to work through a long distance present to get to a happily ever after future. Being a plane ride away from each other is the toughest. And sometimes it’s just too tough. Something is over that I didn’t want to... Read more »

15 years later, I miss you just as much

It’s been 15 years since you both left me. Sometimes the sadness of it all is enough to break me. I’ve spent more than one night crying myself to sleep because you guys aren’t here. I think of the things you’ve missed, the moments you haven’t gotten to see and it physically hurts me. But... Read more »

The Beds You Lay In

You laid down and sobbed after he told you no. After the proverbial punch to the stomach. People told you to be proud. That you followed your heart and now you know. But then your heart broke and all you felt was crushed. Defeated. Broken in a way that seems non fixable. You felt damaged.... Read more »

What He Said, What I Heard

What he said: “Have more confidence, babe.” What I heard: “He hates me because I’m insecure and needy.” What he said: “You’re beautiful.” What I heard: “Buttt….my stomach should be flatter and my boobs perkier and my ass firmer, right?” This is what it’s like inside the brain of a girl with anxiety and codependency... Read more »

Boundaries, Not Barriers

“Just wanted to say hi.” Those four words were all it took for me to unravel last week. I don’t know why I felt the need to click on that “other” tab on Facebook that day, but I did. And there was one message. From him. The one who started it all. The one I... Read more »

You Can't Have A Beautiful Future Without One Hell Of A Past

I’ve always been terrified of becoming them. The fear strikes me wholly and completely. I can’t be them. I know what I’m not, but I’m constantly terrified of what could be. Each time I enjoy a glass of wine with a girlfriend, or a sensible vodka soda. When I make plans to see my best... Read more »

Soften Your Edges

“Mouths closed, ears open, eyes on Miss Cassie.” “Pump your brakes.” “Zipper your talking lips, plug in your thinking caps, and turn on your listening ears.” “Go wash your hands.” “When you don’t listen, you break Miss Tass’s heart. Do you want me to have a broken heart?” “STOP TOUCHING YOUR PENIS.” These are the... Read more »

There Is ALWAYS A Silver Lining

(Once a month, for Blogapalooz-Hour, we are given a topic at 9pm and have one hour to write about it. You post at 10pm, no matter what. This month’s topic is, “Write about a time you experienced a remarkable coincidence or witnessed something unexplainable.” Here’s my take.) If I’m a billion percent honest with y’all,... Read more »

Shake It Off: Goodbye 30, Hello 31!

I didn’t want to turn 30 last year. I didn’t have a particular reason, I just didn’t want to be “old.” And now here I sit, a little over 24 hours away from 31. 31 has always terrified me. I’ve never, ever, ever wanted to be 31. To be honest, sometimes I thought I wouldn’t... Read more »