20 Questions Soul-Style: Meggan Watterson

20 Questions Soul-Style: Meggan Watterson
Meggan Watterson

Good day to you, friends, and welcome back to the 20 Questions Soul-Style series. I am very honored and humbled to have Meggan Watterson on the blog today answering my 20 Questions, because she is such a beautiful light in the world — if you aren’t familiar with her work, Meggan is a Harvard-trained theologian, author and pilgrim to the Divine Feminine. Her books are healing…uplifting..awakening beyond words, and I feel so privileged to get to know her and share her work with you in this way. Pour yourself a nice hot cup of tea, sit back, and take this in — it is an amazing sharing she has offered to us and, frankly, I have been brought to tears more than just a couple times in reading and re-reading her responses.

1. Who are you?

Undiluted light, divine love incarnate, a spiritual misfit, an eternal soul inside a brief, beloved body, an indie mom, a consummate Scorpio and an avid writer of love poems.

2. What do you do?

I love as much as I can, as hard as possible and hopefully more and more each day. And with that love, I write.

3. Why do you do it?

Writing makes me feel most alive.

4. How did you find your way to it?

It found me.

5. How do you feel when you do it?

Expansive. Well, not always. Sometimes I feel intensely drawn inward almost to the point that nothing outside me seems as real. This is what it feels like when I’m trying to find the truth — when I’m searching for the words that will set down my truth in one sentence. And then once I’ve done that, the expansion returns.

6. What is the joy that keeps you up at night?

The belief that love never dies.

7. What is one thing you still have to practice every day?

Writing is my most powerful spiritual practice. And the soul-voice meditation, which I do before I start to write.

8. What are you always searching for?

I go inward to uncover only more love and light.

9. What have you found after searching?

All that I need is within.

10. How do you stay connected to your inner core of peace?

The soul-voice meditation.

11. What makes you feel led or guided?

Listening to the voice of my soul. And taking action based on what I hear.

12. What do you do when you can’t hear God (or the Universe, or Source, or your intuition) speaking to you?

I take a hot lavender bath, a long walk, I write, I listen inward, I stay very quiet and humble until that most unassuming voice of the soul surfaces again.

13. What is the difference between resistance and fear?

Resistance for me can often be an aversion to the radical shift or change that will take place once I do the very thing I’m resisting. Or it can be an indication that the timing’s not right for me. The only way to discern what’s true when resistance arises is to go inward. To really ask my soul what the bleep is going on. And then take actions based on what I hear.

Fear for me is like resistance’s ancient great-grandmother. It’s far louder and far more in my face about making a choice or what to do in relation to it. The process of responding, though, is exactly the same. Fear is a great teacher. A Yoda-like-wisdom can be forged if we find our right relation to fear. Sometimes it comes as an indicator of the precise direction we need to go in. For example, I used to be phobic of flying. That fear, though, once I learned how to listen to it, wanted me to fly. And so I did. And I’ve become so much more love because of it. But sometimes fear comes and it’s an indicator of what I need to release and move away from. For example, my tendency to want to hole up like a lil hermitess, chant, light candles and just connect with the divine. I get afraid at nights when I’m alone. And this to me is actually a gorgeous call for me to release that old pattern of isolating myself and letting my human-small-me needs be met. I thrive in community, in love. So fear in that case is a cosmic corrector, a spiritual slap for me to remember I’m human too.

14. Where does the idea come from that we are broken, unworthy or undeserving?

The feeling or belief that we are broken and unworthy comes from different places for different people. I see it as an initiation. It’s an opportunity. When we feel broken and unworthy of love, it’s a chance for us to recognize the ego’s voice and do what we can to meet its needs. I like to think of my soul picking up my ego and holding it with fierce devotion until all of me remembers that I am worthy of love simply because I exist.

15. How do you move past that to connect with others on a soul level?

Find what makes you feel flush to your soul. Whatever it is. And do it daily. This is the only way to remain intimate with the part of us that can never be broken.

16. I love the “indiemom” hashtag you use in social media. Is that term another sort of a nod to your being untethered to or not affiliated with a traditional {religious} structure?

I hadn’t thought of that! I like that. I didn’t like the way I felt when I was referred to as a single mom or when I gave myself that moniker in my mind. It felt lonely and sad. I felt like I was wearing baggy sweat pants and sitting alone watching TV on a muddy brown couch. Then I edited that title, and it shifted my energy around the reality of being a single mom. In a way, I was finding a way to choose my life — even if I never set out to raise my son solo. Indie Mom, energetically, felt like I was suddenly in hot pants, flanked by fascinating people and leading a tremendously exciting, unchartered life — one that’s entirely my own.

17. I immensely relate to the physical journeys you refer to in your past before you realized that what you were seeking was within. Is it still a practice for you, getting hooked and unhooking yourself, or do you feel like you are “home” for good?

In my experience, the fact of being human means we play a hide-and-go-seek game (even if consciously) of feeling connected to the source of divine love within and then “losing” it again. I think as long as I am embodied, I will go through moon-like cycles of feeling drenched and intensely connected and then further apart from the divine. And also, yes — I feel home always even when distant. The soul-voice meditation helps cultivate it — that presence of divine love within me. There’s a part of me that can never un-know it now.

18. Your cross-heart-anchor symbol is so beautiful. Is having a personal image or talisman helpful to think of often or perhaps meditate on? 

It’s Mary Magdalene’s cross. It comes from the Camargue in the south of France where legends say she traveled after witnessing the resurrection. Supposedly she lived out her remaining years there. The cross is for faith, the anchor is a symbol of hope, and the heart is love. I was in my early 20s when I saw it for the first time while on a pilgrimage. It struck me in a way I can’t articulate. It’s as if it went all the way back to some essence of who I am. It was as if I was looking at the tattoo my soul would get if souls could get inked.

19. When I first sat down to do the soul-voice meditation from your latest book How To Love Yourself (and Sometimes Other People), yes I did the ugly cry, but also, rather than conjure up a moment when I felt loved, what came to me was the moment of my father’s passing, when I felt such intense love for him and my family. Is that on the right track or is that diverting or resisting the feeling of being loved?

That’s so beautiful, lady. Yes. In an ancient sacred text called The Thunder: Perfect Mind, the voice of the divine feminine says, “Since what is your inside is your outside… And what you see on the outside, you see revealed on the inside.” Sounds Sphinx-like and riddle-y I know. But the teaching it contains is so profoundly simple. To love another is to love ourselves. There is no separation. To feel such a powerful love for another is the same to allow that love to exist within you; it is you. Our capacity to love someone else is equidistant to our own capacity to love ourselves.

20. The idea of the physical body as sacred and Divine brings out my inner rebel — it immediately shines a light on how poorly I can treat my body via diet and exercise, as something I have to fix. Is this part of the “moving through stone” phase?

Yes. The body is not separate from the soul. The two are one while we are alive. It’s the idea that the body is distinct (or even less than) the soul that allows us to treat it in ways that are far from sacred. I love this mantra for uniting body and soul — try it out for a while; write it on your mirror with a red sharpie pen (it’ll come off — don’t worry), write it on a piece of paper and tape it up next to your bed so it’s the last thing you read before dreaming…and repeat it as often as you can throughout the day: “My body is my soul’s chance to be here.”

Thank you, Meggan, for your generous spirit.

As I let this marinate and consider the profundity of even just that last answer above — My body is my soul’s chance to be here — it’s as if I can hear my soul gently knocking on the door. Remember me? Thank you; I know you do. And the answers come more quickly, and I am more deeply myself, and I am more at ease when sharing that with the world.

This is what I hope for all of you…can you lead with your soul today? Can you take a moment to breathe and reconnect? I hope this has given you the space to do that. It is in these moments of quiet wisdom and reflection that we more fully know who we are and what our soul’s purpose is in this lifetime. Thank you for coming along for the ride with me.

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