I am a mental health professional and part of what I do is to teach people coping skills and other healthy shit about communication and self care. I try to practice what I preach, which I do, unless I don’t. Sometimes I make a conscious choice to choose poor coping skills because healthy coping skills sometimes make ME feel less healthy than the unhealthy ones? Should I preach the practice of the occasional poor choice?
I tell clients that when they are feeling stressed, they should avoid alcohol and shit food, yet sometimes when I’m stressed out, I DRINK WINE and eat a pile of nitrates and sugar! I don’t do this very often, but I very often regret it when I do, however this regret doesn’t stop me from doing it in the future, because without regret and poor choices, I wouldn’t have anything to talk to MY therapist about.
I am a little tense and a lot overwhelmed today, out of town for work and struggling to cope. I thought about doing some guided meditation. I thought about how I preach the shit out of the practice of using tools for meditation and guided imagery, yet to me, the slow talking and repetition that is a characteristic of this tool makes it feel like the metaphorical hammer in my toolbox. I gave it a shot.
BANG BANG! Relaxxxx….BANG! Relaxxxxx…notice your breathing…
OMG JUST PICK UP THE PACE AND WHAT THE HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLL I RELAXED THE FIRST TIME YOU FUCKING TOLD ME TO AND STOP TELLING ME TO BREATHE, WHAT THE FUCK ELSE AM I GONNA DO? STOP? I DON’T HAVE A DEATH WISH, I’M JUST A LITTLE STRESSED. SHEESH…..
So as far as this practice what you preach skills goes, I can’t do it, unless I can, and then I do, but if I can’t, I don’t, like today, I just needed a corkscrew.