I am participating in the exposed movement from Eating Journey because I want to celebrate who I was and who I have become. I first heard about this exposed movement from Brooke Not on a Diet blog post. I thought if she can do it, I sure can too. She’s so inspiring.
I use to delete pictures of me when I started seeing my double chin and hair growing under the chin. I learned a technique from a friend to hold the cell phone up high and look up into it. This would create the illusion that I didn’t have a double chin.
I love pictures of myself now and I only delete them when my hair is out of place. I also want people to see what my life is about and capture all my moments because I am exposed.
I talk about my loose skin in this blog post and how my self esteem has changed for the better. My spirit has blossomed so much in the past 2 years with my new body that I celebrate all my accomplishments.
When I gained 80 lbs in 3 years, my keloids (scars that don’t stop scarring) grew rapidly on my chest and shoulders. I felt like a freak show because it seemed like everyone would stare at them or kids would say ewww what’s that as they pointed at me.
I’m more confident in myself that I don’t worry about what others do not understand. I can’t do anything about the Keloids because doctors have just had trial runs with ways to eliminate them. My Keloids don’t define who I am nor hold me back.
If I focused on the negative and wished my body was this and that, I would be missing the big picture. The big picture is the celebration of what I can do and my beauty through out.
I exposed myself to show the celebration of what my body can do. I have accomplished getting my Masters Degree in Social Work. I will become a Weight Watchers Leader. I am strong, determined, loving, caring, helpful, artist, and a clarinet player. My body can leg press, lift weights, sing, draw, create life, dance, run and support life.
If I didn’t love myself today, I wouldn’t have the strength to take care of myself mentally. I discovered this year that I was a co-dependent because I tried to save my husband from alcohol. I was bogged down and going insane trying to control the situation.
What I have learned that addiction is similar to losing weight, you can’t make someone change if they do not want to change. I had to want to change in order to lose weight and that had to happen with my husband. We have been separated since July 2013 and I am working on a stronger Gwyn.
Think about what your body has done for you through this journey and celebrate those accomplishments. I would love to hear what those exposed accomplishments are. Please comment below.
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