I have been thinking about cancer a lot lately. I know that sounds strange since I don’t think a day has gone by since my diagnosis in 2001 that I haven’t thought about cancer. Something has been different though lately. I seem to be hearing more about cancer. Seeing more about cancer. Knowing more people diagnosed with cancer, seeing and knowing people dying of cancer.
I have seen way too many people die from cancer. I have seen too many kids go through a nightmare that most adults couldn’t handle. It breaks my heart to see it and I am saddened that I don’t see an end in sight.
I know that there are cancer survivors that have completely moved on after their treatment and have been cancer free for years and have never looked back. I don’t judge them for this at all. Some people go through a trial and then move on after and look at it like it was just a bad period in their life.
I’m not wired like that. I believe that I got a gift being cancer free and I want to pay it forward as much as I can while also giving glory to God. This is my struggle lately. I so badly want to stay connected to the cancer community but in the same time wishing that it didn’t exist. Each story of cancer breaks my heart and I have shed countless tears for people that I don’t even know.
I have 6 more classes left before I graduate from Moody Bible Institute with a Bachelors degree in Bible Studies. My goal, God willing, is to retire from the fire department in 5 years and go to work somewhere with cancer patients or their families. I would like to work with Phil’s Friends, a Christian cancer organization spreading hope. I would love to work at Harvest Bible Chapel doing something there. I don’t know where God will take me in this road He has me on but I am willing to do whatever and go wherever He leads me and my family. I don’t want to waste the gift He gave me.
So where does that put me now? What can I do now with an already busy household, a full time job, and not much free time? It puts me in the place of spreading cancer awareness and the Gospel as often as I can. If that means I keep running marathons and doing triathlons to show cancer patients that a cancer diagnosis is not a death sentence, then I will do that. I will put Bible verses on my shirt and tell my testimony to anyone that will hear it. God didn’t bless me with speed or much athletic ability but he did give me the heart to keep trying and to show people it can be done.
Cancer doesn’t seem to be going anywhere soon. Since it doesn’t seem to be going anywhere, I’m going to do anything within my power to show that God is more powerful than cancer. Cancer may cut the duration of people’s time here on earth but I know who holds the key to eternal life. That is why I run crazy marathons. Because I can.
Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Cancer doesn’t always mean what people think it means. For me it meant to get up off my butt. I believe God told me to run marathons. He just didn’t tell me when to stop.
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