I am a practical person. Efficient. I am also a worrier, the classic person who “thinks too much.” So, when I’m driving to work, it just seems a waste of time to be in the moment when I could be driving and worrying. Two birds with one stone and all that.
When I dropped my daughter off at school this morning, I was almost t-boned by another parent who simply turned into my lane. Honestly, if you want to lose all faith in humanity, spend time in a high school parking lot.
A near miss is one way of getting into the moment and committing to staying there. I think they call it defensive driving.
So, I was already on notice before driving to work. But I’ve been mulling over something in my head the past week, thinking hard about the choices I make and taking responsibility for them.
Truly, I was looking forward to some serious mulling and some intense dwelling during my 30 minute drive to work.
I was deep into my conundrum, twisting and replaying. Somehow I ended up on Governors Highway, though I don’t recall much from my house to that point. As I headed south, the sun was at just the right place to blind my left eye. The visor wouldn’t block it either.
And then, I stopped worrying and mulling and dwelling. I had to hold my hand up to block the sun. I reminded myself to breathe and, then, to notice where I was. As I did that I felt the intensity of the sun through the windshield despite the fact that it’s 5 degrees outside.
I realized that the sun felt good. I noticed the Metra track to my left, the flow of traffic as we all prepared for the speed limit to increase to 55.
There’s a dappled beauty in the wide open flat spaces along Governors Highway. The snow reflects the sun and its brilliance was dazzling. It was a relief to have a reason to stop mulling. It was a joy to be blinded by sun. It felt good to breathe and be in the moment while driving to work.
This post is part of a year-long series about my New Year’s resolution. All in the series are included in the Resolution Chronicles category below. This is the first post that explains my resolution.
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