I saw this quote from Abby Johnson and started thinking about something totally unrelated:
If you are a Christ follower but also hate abortion clinic workers or abortionists, then the Bible says that you are guilty of murder. We won’t win this battle unless we learn to love better. If you have hate in your heart, then you need to pray. It’s really hard to hate the people that you diligently pray for. – Abby Johnson
On this Mother’s Day, nearly 20 years after my own Mother’s death, I cannot find it in my heart to pray for her. I’ve always wondered why I never do and now I know. The hatred I have for her still lingers after all these years and that definitely made me pause.
How can this be? I have been a convert for over 30 years! I took care of my mother the last years of her life. I’ve experienced forgiveness towards her concerning certain episodes with her. Yet, when it comes to praying for her, I can only remember maybe one or two occasions when I said a quick prayer for her.
I’m ashamed of this. I work hard at my faith and though I trip up in other areas, this really bothers me that I have not been able to pray for my own mother!
This Mother’s Day, I’m determined to offer up a heartfelt prayer for her soul. I did a search for prayers for mothers, but I couldn’t find anything that even begins to describe how I feel. Since our relationship was combative and unloving, I can’t pray anything that talks about a loving mother. It doesn’t make sense.
For those of you who have (or had) a great mother, I know that this is hard for you to understand. I am blessed to have a wonderful relationship with my daughter so it makes it doubly difficult for me to understand why my mother didn’t have any affection for me.
I need a prayer for my mother on Mother’s Day. I am asking all of you to help me find a prayer that I can pray with sincerity for my mother.
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