The barrage of resolutions have been rushing through your minds. What am I going to change next year? What do I need to change to make next year better? Have you been thinking these things? Have you made your list; chosen your resolutions? Question is if you have, why haven't you done these things before?
People have been asking me what mine are. The same things come to my mind: I'm going to lose weight and exercise again, I'm going to write a book. I'm going to be more focused about things, I'm going to get out of bed before 10AM (yes, you read that correctly). And after awhile it just sounds like blah. blah, blah. A total rerun of the last twenty years of resolutions. Promises I make to myself but have broken. Resolutions that have never been resolved. This has now led me to wonder and really analyze why I have never kept them before?
It's taken a lot of self examination to figure it out. Plus, years of experience and reaching the age of 55 this year (yikes!!). You have to delve deep into your own bad self to realize why you promise yourself things every year and fail to carry them out. My conclusion is just this: I obviously have not wanted them bad enough. But suddenly, at my age I have realized that time is not nearly as much on my side as it used to be and there is no more time to waste on talk.
2012 was a huge year for me. Many changes occurred in my life and my family. I hit twenty five years of marriage (a milestone!!), my youngest child graduated from college, we moved after twenty two years in the same home (that was a resolution for numerous years, see how long it took??) and both of my kids moved out. With these things now behind me, it leaves plenty of time and room to now focus on the things that I have wanted to do, to resolve. No more excuses, right?
I wish I could say that. I wish that I cold honestly make a list of resolutions that I will stick to and say by the end of 2013 I will have achieved them all. I could say that I was so sure the world was ending December 21st that I hadn't made resolutions for 2013 and now I ran out of time. But I shall not cop to any more excuses. Here's the deal.
None of us are getting any younger. Everyday we age, moving a bit closer to the time when we are running out of time. I'd love to believe that I have a good 25-35 years left in me to do some of the things I've always tried to resolve to do. Things I have failed to do all by myself with no one else to blame.
So, why don't we all stop making commitments to change things and just change the way we live from this day forward, no matter what day it is. ? Wouldn't it be a novel idea to reach December 31, 2013 and know that we have done what we can do to make our own lives better and not have to beat ourselves up?
We all like to look at January 1st as a fresh start. But there are 364 other days to do the same thing.
Happy New Year.
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