I used to be intimidated by meditation. Not only daunted by the thought of sitting in stillness, but bad at it as well. Harder than any of the asanas attempted during yoga class, the meditation or final relaxation was the biggest challenge.
I struggle daily with letting go as I am constantly thinking of what I need to do next instead of being in the moment. I strongly believe meditation is a learned behavior. I practice breathing, being motionless and starting small with a few breaths and adding up to a few minutes.
Yesterday I began a new yoga intensive with Dorie Silverman. She suggested we try to meditate for 5 minutes every day with a gorgeous lit candle she provided us.
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Day One: I'm super excited to meditate this morning. After I've given the kids breakfast and they are preoccupied with Max & Ruby, (Why do those bunnies not have parents?) I sneak off to my bedroom to meditate.
I lit the candle and set my phone timer for 5 minutes. I settled into a comfortable seated position and began to breathe. My thoughts were active and I found it difficult to clear my mind completely.
It was much harder than I anticipated. My back hurt, I heard the dog whining in the distance and I was sure my phone had forgot to beep to signal that my time was up. Finally with 23 seconds left I peaked at my timer, immediately disappointed I didn't make it the full five minutes.
From there I did a few simple yoga poses to release the tension in my lower back. Keeping my candle lit, I headed back towards my children and the accompanying chaos. Even though my meditation was lacking complete concentration I feel altered; calmer and stronger.
I will be posting updates on the remainder of my weekly challenge. Come back to see if it gets easier and if I'm able to stick to the routine, especially with winter break ending and school starting again next week.
Do you want to join me in a daily 5 minute meditation practice for a week?