I guess it's always longer inbetween posts than I think it is. Again, part of me wonders what I was thinking trying to write a blog about mental illness with a mental illness. There's the whole I have manic-depression, so I have all these moments where I have great ideas for blog posts and no follow through. There's this whole I have undiagnosed by this psychiatrist/untreated ADD so I have all these great post ideas and no follow through. There's this I have depression so I have no follow through and then I hate myself for it. There .... you get the idea, right?
I don't know. I really do have great ideas. I even start writing the blog posts in my head -- when I'm nowhere near a computer or anything. Speaking of which, if I get an iPad, is there an app where I can get a stylus and just free-write and type those notes out later? Is that a thing? You'd think I was on Facebook now.
Speaking of which. For fuck's sake, is that a fucking time suck/bad attitude causing/thing I'm completely addicted to. And when I say I'm "addicted to it," I mean addicted. In the literal sense of the word. Like I say I'm going to take a break and then the voices start the next morning ... "I'll just check it real quick. Just run through notifications and I'll be done." The whole commute over, I'm wondering "how it happened again."
I say I'm doing a digital detox to start the year. And then allowing myself an hour a day. In the morning. Then one at night. Saying I'll at least erase the app from my phone. But then just moving it out of the "social media" folder to a couple of screens over where it's less convenient. It's a thing. It's not a good thing.
And I have another blog, The Smussyolay. This March, it turns ten. TEN years old. I've been blogging for ten years. That's something, right? But I've abandoned that for this, and now I have two blogs I'm miserable at keeping up with.
I'll be 40 in a month or so and blah. Anyway, good to see you, how is the family, how were the holidays? This weather is stupid as hell, right? Yeah. Okay, well, I should already be asleep, so I'll catch you on the other side with more interesting and exciting stuff than this. Sometimes, you just have to write. Ack. Keep up with my head ... type your email address in the box and click the "create subscription" button. You will NEVER get anything else from me (no SPAM, and you can opt out at any time).