Day 3: so close, yet so far.
From the minute I woke up, I had a very stong feeling that this day would suck more than the other two, and I was right. Besides the fact that it was my last day of the cleanse, and the third day (which I’ve heard is always the worst in any sort of cleanse/fast), this was also the day of my job interview. I don’t know about anyone else, but I like to eat when I’m stressed out.
The morning started off fine. I woke up early, cleaned up a little, got ready, and headed to the L. The problems arose when I realized that I had just missed the train that I needed, and I would have to take the next one, which didn’t come for another 10 minutes. I wouldn’t be late to my interview, but I would be running. And run, I did. I ran to the L stop (which was pointless, but whatever), from the L stop to a Kinko’s, from Kinko’s to the building that I thought my interview was in, and then from the building that I thought my interview was in to the building that it was actually in. Oh, what fun.
The interview, itself, went great, but when I finally left, all I could think about was food. I was hungry. I had finished my last juice before the interview, right after my half marathon, and it should be noted that vigorous activity does not make this process easier. So then, I was left with nothing but my L ride back, and the walk past 5 past restaurants and 1 grocery store before I made it safely home. But still, all I could think about was food.
This was the only point in my entire 3 days cleanse when I really thought about quitting. I started making excuses for myself like, “I was really active this morning, I probably did too much,” and “I think I’ve done this for long enough,” or just “UGH! WHATEVER.” But anytime I seriously started considering giving up and eating, my Kripalu Teacher, Brahmani’s voice rang through my head. “When you make a commitment, there is no decision.” I had committed to my juice, and I was not going to quit. I wanted to quit, and I knew it wasn’t the end of the world if I did, but I had made the decision at the beginning that I wanted to see it through to the end, so that was what I had to do. Finish.
This wave of strength lasted me through two more juices and until about 5pm. My hunger had subsided to just a dull roar, until it flared back up with a series of grumbles as my body started to remind me that it was nearing dinner time. The thought of ingesting one more liquid beverage made me seriously nauseous, even though I knew it was one of my yummy pineapple juice/coconut water concoctions I made yesterday. I just couldn’t do it.
I decided, though, that if I was going to make it past the “dinner hump,” as I like to call it, I would have to swallow something down. So, I chose to go with the more filling Juice #6 – the Strawberry Cashew Milk, which tasted better and left me a lot more satisfied than any of the other juices.
I got through about ¾ of my Cashew Milk before it started to get too warm for my liking, and I decided to put the rest of it in the fridge in case I wanted it before bed. I wasn’t hungry, but I wasn’t exactly satisfied either at this point – the fact that it was the end of the last day was really starting to get to me – so I took the advice of my fellow yogi blogger, Yoga Mom, and walked down the street to Starbucks to get one of their Chinese Green Teas. I’ve never been a huge fan of green tea, which is why I didn’t have any in the house, but it tasted surprisingly good! It was especially nice to drink something warm for a change, and it ended up being all I needed to make it through the night. I wish I had decided to drink some sooner; I think it would have made a few of my hungrier moments a lot easier.
Summary: I DID IT! Because when you make a commitment, there is no decision.
What I learned: It was difficult and not exactly a fun time, but my body is thanking me already. My skin looks more radiant, and my body/mind/heart feels lighter and more energetic than it has in a while. I really feel as though I’m starting anew with the start of spring, and I am thoroughly happy that I stuck it out (and even happier that it’s over)!
If any of you have found inspiration from my juice journey, and would like to start your own, comment below! I would love to answer any questions or offer support while you're on your way! Jai!