On Halloween, I wore a multi-colored wig. It was my first time not being a redhead. Usually, when I have my normal hair, I get a little more attention than most people, primarily from old ladies and creepers who are obsessed with gingers.
I've been curious to know what it would feel like to have blonde or brunette hair, and I wasn't sure what to expect having rainbow-colored hair. The thing is, I thought it would feel great to have something different, even if it was obviously not real and still a costume.
The weird part is, I felt more invisible. Sure, the wig attracted some attention, especially when I was the only dressed up person on the train and had glitter more places than a 13-year-old girl at Claire's, but it didn't feel right.
It's kind of insane that I'm overanalyzing how it felt to wear a Halloween costume, but it really made me feel like it wasn't a part of my true self. I guess this is what happens when you are a ginger and your hair is a huge part of your identity.
The weirdest part is, I LOVE dressing up for Halloween. I love getting into a character. But I felt really weird wearing a wig. The past few years, my costume has centered around my hair -- I made my hair into a lion's mane one year, was Raggedy Ann another, Pippi Longstocking/Wendy's another, and Joan from "Mad Men" last year.
I felt weird, having to show people who I've met a few times before my red hair so they knew who I was. I'm not used to feeling that ... anonymous? I'm definitely the person who can't do anything wrong because if I do, everyone will notice...and remember. I'm always remembered. And I remember that.
In the wig, I felt like no one was seeing the real me, even though that's kind of the point of costumes. It was a weird social experiment that I didn't expect would have any impact on me. But it did. I guess the moral of the story is my hair has more of an impact on who I am and my self-branding than I thought it did. Next experiment: finding those blonde and brunette wigs! I want to try something a little closer to normal and see what that's like.
Have you ever felt invisible in a Halloween costume?