There are several benefits to growing up Catholic but, as an 8 year old in 1991, my favorite was the donuts. Every Sunday morning after 8:30am at St. Margaret Mary Church, complimentary glazed donuts and chocolate milk were served in the cafeteria. The best Sundays happened when Father Gallagher was at the helm as it meant that we were in and out of mass in 45 minutes or less. His musical Irish brogue was the perfect melody to accompany my growling belly as I counted down the seconds until I could wolf down a donut..or 2..or 3…
And, although guilt is often associated with Catholics, food guilt is not. I was never judged by the volunteers who served up those warm hunks of dough and sugar; nor do I recall anyone looking at me twice for taking seconds or thirds. In fact, my 8 year old self thought that the Catholic Church or, at the very least, my Catholic Church, had an endless supply of donuts or perhaps a sizable holding in Krispy Kreme.
22 years later, I no longer indulge in carbs on Sunday mornings, nor do I attend mass regularly (I hope my mother doesn’t read this). But the warm memories of Father Gallagher’s baritone and those fresh glazed donuts make me happy. And, I need happiness lately as guilt (not the Catholic variety but the food kind) is what haunts me on this the first day of 2013.
Bless me, Former Chubettes, for I have sinned. I have gained back 15 lbs in 7 months. And no, I am not with child. And yes, I have muffin top in my pants. Not just the slight muffin top either- I am talking the over-stuffed Dunkin Donuts chocolate chip muffin with drizzle muffin top. It is bad!
Predictably, my New Year’s resolution is to lose those 15lbs. That means no more daily jaunts to the Walgreen’s snack aisle or twice a day Dunkin Donuts runs. This means that I will have to show some-gasp!-self-restraint!
I am unhappy and I am ashamed that I gained back 15lbs. After the first 5lbs, I vowed to quit snacking and, start blogging. That didn’t happen. I know I have sinned twice- I gained back 15lbs AND I stopped blogging because of the shame associated with my weight gain. I don’t know which sin is mortal and which is venial but I know both are weighing heavy on my thighs.
2013, I need you to have my back. And, my butt, thighs and tummy. I need you to help me DO this. I want to lose that weight and keep it off this year!
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