In 21 days, I will no longer be a stay at home mom. I will be back at the station, working 40 hours a week, and officially be a working mother.
I am terrified.
I am scared that I will not be able to manage being a mother to Sophie, wife and producer. I want to be a success in all areas of my life, personally and professionally, and right now, the only task I can successfully manage in a day is taking a shower. Yep, that's a big accomplishment to me now. A shower.
I am also worried that I won't have lost most of the baby weight when I go back to work. When I started Slim-fast on Sept. 1st, I was so confident that I would lose 30 lbs during my maternity leave.
What was I thinking?!!?
I have lost weight- 14 lbs since Sept 1st to be exact, but I really doubt that I will lose 16 additional lbs in 3 weeks. Which means I will be rocking the Spanx and stretchy pants when I start working again.
I have come to realize that goal-making isn't easy with a 2 month old. I can try to lose lbs all I want, but I can't and won't just plop my daughter in her swing so I can do 30 extra minutes of cardio. And, sometimes I really do NEED a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup to maintain my sanity when Sophie just won't go to sleep.
So, as much as I WANT to be thinner as soon as possible, I have to accept the fact that it will not happen overnight, or rather, in 3 weeks.
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