I like to act how I want to act.
I like to speak how I want to speak.
I like the way I go about my life.
You know what I don't like? Being told how to act, speak, be...Can't I just...be?
When do you feel most awkward? When you speak up. Do something out of the ordinary. Conduct your life by your own standards. Walk the way you want to walk. Do whatever it is the way you want to do it. A harsh collison of strange events that lead into a tailspin of internal feelings and then producing a one-sided (internal) dialogue. Or go on a rant.
I say, go forth and be whatever you wish to be at whatever level in whatever capacity. By limiting yourself to social mores, you limit your potential as a human being living in the world. What rules must you live by? I'll give those rules right now (and please correct me if I'm wrong):
- Must eat, nutrition is vital to your survival
- Must breath, this action is vital to your survival
- Must sleep, rest is vital to your survival (eventually you will go to sleep)
- Must die, morbid but the reality of life and thus unavoidable - so live it your way
Plenty of other rules, of course. I went with a simplistic route, where I see little argument. For example, if you have not breathed and still are alive, let's talk - I would be fascinated!
Feel free to tell this long-haired hippy to rid you of the liberal attitude... Better to open doors to possibilities than close the doors to unrealized things in life. Too many times do people close their eyes and ears to the easier things, to what society "says" instead of listening to your heart and mind on what is the right thing for you. It might be an awkward conversation to tell your parents you want to be in the Peace Corps., skipping medical school. Your two-year romantic relationship may involve a raving lunatic of a girlfriend/boyfriend, and that awkward conversation will pump your blood to boil (and send your heart into its own attack), but then there is that breath of fresh air. The world seems clearer and your mind reaches a deeper sense of satisfaction...For it is after the awkward that we feel our best. We have cleared the air, or paved a way to our passion in life, despite what has been "told" to us over the years. As it was once put so eloquently by 670AM The Score host, Dan Bernstein, and I'm paraphrasing, "It is disgusting that people are taking the easy narrative instead of asking the tough questions." He was referencing the Penn State sex scandal. Why do we take the easy narrative? Stop taking the easy narrative. If you don't want to hear it from me, ask Robert Frost.
Breath...Clarity may not be reached after a petty blog post, but I sure feel better.
Someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed...Awkward...