Well, what's been percolating inside for years—a lifetime (lifetimes, whatever)—seems to be gushing forth and outward after a summer of some pretty deep introspection. Good times, some might say;) But truly for me, as many of you know, reflection equals good times, indeed. Especially when it stems from my own life experiences rather than the musings of another's truth.
Basically, for years, I have touted millions of paths up the mountaintop to personal truth, joy, passion and peace. And while I still view this as truth, I have surprised myself very much recently as I have discovered that, NO PATH, is exactly where I feel the most comfortable and sit today.
As I have shifted more and more from role (multiple identifications) to soul—it has become apparent to me that my inner freedom comes from the understanding that simply, I AM...
When I was a young child until about school age, I remember just being ANNIE. Life was moment-to-moment and day-by-day and soul-to-soul.
This summer flashes of that young girl who still lives deep inside of me kept floating into my awareness. She was and is a glorious little creature, open and willing to live from her soul.
But as I grew up, as we all do, there became many, many endings to the full feeling of simply I AM...
I am a girl.
I am a dancer.
I am a student.
I am a Christian.
I am a child.
I am an American.
I am a wife.
I am a teacher.
I am a new-ager.
I am a parent.
I am a vegan.
I am a meat-eater.
I am an author.
I am a spiritual teacher.
I am a soul nurturer.
And you get the idea, on and on and on...
Suddenly, all of the paths, all of the labels, all of the identifications, when they become kinda solid and a "thing" (and they almost always do) just feel really noisy and heavy to my soul.
It feels so much better to me right now not to identify with any path, any label, any outer form of identity that often subtly takes away my power and freedom as an infinitely designed, fully-operational soul.
So, instead of becoming a biker, a past-time that I love, I simply enjoy biking at my own pace and in my own way.
Instead of being a vegetarian or a carnivore, I simply enjoy eating whatever my body feels like eating in that moment.
Instead of being a democrat or a republican, I simply listen to my heart as needed.
Instead of being a lifelong spiritual seeker, I simply feel content in just being ME.
I have realized that I do not desire to be labeled as any one thing or identify myself on any distinct paths.
I have realized that I just desire to be who I really AM... A free soul, a blended being, both human and spirit. This feels like truth to me.
And while I will certainly continue to work, enjoy my family and friends, feel passion for earthly pursuits, and be a responsible, conscious being in all areas, it's very difficult for me to imagine ever going back to needing to be on a specific path.
It's kinda like as a caterpillar, we are on the path to become a butterfly. But once a butterfly, in that we actually KNOW in every cell of our being that we are truly a butterfly, then there is no need to be anything but free, free to move untethered and in omni-directional ways at all times.
It's kind of hard to explain what this summer has meant to me. I have been aware of many shifts throughout my lifetime. And I have always blessed them all as the next step on my path. I guess one could say the same thing about this shift. And yet, it feels different. It feels like somehow I actually stepped off of the mountain with its myriad paths upward and am left with simply I AM...
Warmth and LOVE,
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