I am back. This was a long hiatus for me, but I felt like no one was "there."
I thought I was making an impact on SOMEONE out there with what I was writing about the good, the bad and the ugly of apologies.
What's more, I thought that with so many badly influenced people out there, that apologies would be cleansing to one's soul, one's mind or (if we are lucky) someone else who was affected.
But no one seems to be making good apologies, anymore.
Not Harvey Weinstein.
Not Roy Moore.
Not Kevin Spacey.
Not Al Franken (although his was closer to being respectable).
And nothing from a President who continues to think that insults are a way to galvanize followers.
One blogger cannot make a watershed difference, but there is a hope that an everyday person like you and me is reading this and saying, "You know what? I was wrong about (fill in the blank) and I should apologize and do better."
The silence has been deafening. Does it mean that apologies carry little to no weight, anymore? Are my thoughts about apologies nothing than a self-fulfilling prophecy? I hope not.
Compounding the silence has been a personal dilemma, being in the midst of a job search for a long time. I have not been able to find a place where I can be happy in a professional realm; hence, it compounds how I feel about people not listening to my messages.
So, I am apologizing to anyone who is reading this blog because I feel like I have failed to some degree. And with every good apology--for those that have heeded any of my past words--comes a way to ensure that the problem does not happen again. So here is what I am going to do moving forward.
RAISE. MY. VOICE. LOUDER AND LARGER THAN EVER.
We are entering a season of giving, a season where we gift things, where we show love and compassion. One person CAN make a difference to someone, somewhere out there. And that someone starts with the person writing this blog.
I have no reason to apologize for anything I have done, and I should not expect people to apologize for not listening to me. It means that I have not said what needs to be said and I have not done what needs to be done. Things happen for a reason, and I am BLESSED. As a friend recently said, my problems are "first world" problems. I have a wife and family that others would die to have. How right he was....
It's time to stop feeling sorry for myself; it's time to stop feeling like I have no worth on this planet of ours and recognize what I DO have and what I CAN offer people.
So moving forward friends, it's time to stop apologizing for things that don't matter and focus on the things that matter most....and when I DO apologize or when I share an apology story, it will be something worthwhile.
Thanks for listening, reading and sharing.