They say that change is inevitable.
I don't recall anyone saying that it would be uncomfortable, challenging and downright painful.
So, I would like to go on record as saying "Being an adult is sometimes highly overrated!"
Now that that's out of the way, I'd like to share with you my shift.
The shift that has left me unbalanced and forced to transition is my 9-to-5.
I specialize in market research, demographics, focus groups and letting my client target their consumer by day, while Making Love Better TwoGether by night.
I've always wanted to "DO" Making Love Better TwoGether full-time, especially with the divorce rate of 50%, and climbing. I recognize there is a need for us to do a better job in the love department. However I also share a love for my day time job. I'm a bit of a geek when it comes to research, consumers and knowing who's buying what and why. So for the past 20+ years I've been living two lives, two passions and connecting them both simultaneously.
After all, research and relationships just go so well together.
My daytime position is being phased out due to budget cuts, so if you are a parent you can just imagine the sheer panic that came over me as I received the news.
I've worked a job of some sort since I was 16 years old. Dueling scenarios ran through my mind for several days as I considered this transition: "What am I going to do? This is where faith comes in! How will I survive? Isn't this what you wanted? Now you can pursue Making Love Better TwoGether Full-time! Hey, you've got kids, who's going to take care of them?"
So after my panic attack and having conversations with friends and family I decided that I needed a moment alone.
I needed a break, a moment of silence to figure out what's best or what's next...
Sometimes quiet is required in order to hear a word from God. Not only what's best for you but what's next for you and even next steps for you.
Now here's my reality... No matter how uncomfortable or un-pretty it is, IT IS! A part of my life is transitioning, and that’s not going to change.
However, I can change how I react to this transition.
So here I am! I've activated my faith, family and friends. I acknowledge and accept that for the past 20 years I've been in training!
I've had DePaul Education training, on the job training, life skills training, purpose and passion training, all preparing me for this time.
No I'm not where I want to be! I'm nervous but I'm stepping none the less. I'm stepping out on faith to do the only thing that I know how to do and that's Making Love Better TwoGether! Sometimes the only way to do what you were purposed to do is to be taken out of your comfort zone, shaken and stirred.
Sometimes life can turn you upside down--and move you past your fears--so that you can learn how to live right side up.
Do I have all of the answers? NO! Am I uncomfortable? Yes! Will I make more mistakes? Absolutely! Am I ready to take the next step that's best for me? YES!
Because I would rather to have loved and lost, tried and failed than to have never experienced those transitions at all.
Thank you so much for allowing me this opportunity to share a part of me, my fears, tears and all!