But, this time is different...

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I so vividly remember how extra syrupy the Coke in front of me was as I did everything I could to keep my tears from rolling down my face.

This was it... How in the world did all of this go by so fast?
Monday, I return to school to finish the final semester of my undergraduate degree. I cannot wrap my head around how fast the last 3.5 years have gone by.

It was like yesterday my family left me in the dorm room with a girl I barely knew terrified for what was going to lie ahead (here’s your shoutout Ang!), and now here I am wondering how in just a few short months how I am supposed to just up and leave it all.

I am not a fan of the word bittersweet, I think it is cliche and overused… However, here I am stuck due to the fact it is the only word to describe everything going on throughout this crazy head of mine.

Some of my hometown friends have already left and gone back to school because their break has come to an end, and just like always we have said our goodbyes and wished each other luck on the semester ahead. But, this time is different…

I’m in the process of packing up all of my stuff and situating my room so that I can go back to school on Monday just like every other time. But, this time is different…

I’ll get in the car Monday morning just like I always do, dreading the long boring car ride and wishing I could snap my fingers and be there already. But, this time is different…

My excitement to see my friends and catch them up on all things ‘Sam’ will be eventful and full of laughs like always. But, this time is different…

My alarm will be set and ready for my first day of classes for the semester. But, this time is different…

All of its different.

It will be the last time my hometown friends are all home for a break from college — I mean who knows where we are all going to end up and when the next time we are all going to get together will be?

With college coming to an end means getting a job and starting a life, which means a new place to live…. Ultimately making my bedroom not my bedroom anymore.

The long boring car ride will be the last time that I am bringing myself back to school. The next time I will be making the drive it will be to leave because my time there has concluded…

After this semester there will be a lot more facetime calls and explanations over text messages over eventful happenings in the life of ‘Sam” for all my friends because they won’t just be a second away.

It will be the first day of my last semester.

All of it is going to be different…
So we sat there, sipping on our drinks (mine so syrupy), denying and avoiding the inevitable.

When its time to leave we toast...

To us making the best of our time at school, and to the future. An exciting, undecided and amazing future!

But, this time is different… The next time we see each other we will be real-life adults ;)

 

(Or we can only hope haha!)

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