This was probably one of my most difficult years – I was on my own for the first time, I was broke, I had no idea what I wanted to do, and although I was surrounded by wonderful friends, I felt very alone and vulnerable.
In this month’s Oprah magazine, Oprah and other celebs wrote a letter to their younger selves, offering love and guidance for what is to come. I felt inspired to do the same.
Don’t be so afraid. You are OK, and you will be OK. Your 20’s are all about being confused and changing your mind – can you find the fun in it?
But don’t worry - you are absolutely moving in the right direction. You made the right choice to move to Chicago. You need to be on your own so you can grow up and learn to take care of yourself. Just keep moving toward what “feels” right - even when others tell you to do otherwise.
Just stay yourself, you don’t need to change. If you want to go home from the bar, go home. If you want to reach out to a friend that hurt you, do it. If you want to try a new style, have fun with it. Just be you, baby.
Keep reading those books you hide under your bed. Marianne Williamson, Wayne Dyer and all the others will always be your teachers. It’s so great how you come alive when you read their books – such a gift at such an early age!
Remember when you were listening to Wayne’s tapes and you knew in your heart you wanted to teach love and inner awareness? Well don’t worry, you’ll get there.
And that boy you love right now, it was the right decision to let him go. He’s not a jerk. He was honest with you and he cares about you enough to tell you the truth – he is too young and unsure to make any kind of commitment, and he needs to go experience the world.
You need to experience the world, too. You will live alone, but you will never be alone. You will have pain and loss, but your friends and family will always help you get back on your feet. You will begin to let go of old stories and past mistakes and realize that even though you often feel weak, you are very strong and wise.
And in 5 years or so, that boy you love will come back older. He will thank you for walking away when he was unsure. He will ask you to marry him and you will have three little girls.
You will know for sure that patience, love, and trust are real.
And as you continue on, you will rediscover this over and over again.
Enjoy the ride lovey,
Cathy, age 40