Archive for October 2016

I just found out my Great Grandma died two years ago

I just found out my Great Grandma died two years ago
Yesterday morning I woke up thinking about Sandia Peak, pecan Sandies stored in a tin, bread and butter pickles that I called “Grandma pickles,” the giant red arrow landmark, and the sweet smell of an Albuquerque morning. It’s been years since I’ve been to Albuquerque. I think I last visited in 2007, as part of... Read more »

Asking the storm for its name: grief

Asking the storm for its name: grief
My storm manifests as a hurricane, a devastating whirlwind of emotion and depression. It serves as quite an useful metaphor, actually, extending into battening down the hatches, turmoil and wind, emotional destruction. I find it ironic that I grew up in tornado country, but my demons have taken the shape of a hurricane. But it’s... Read more »

And, just like that, the eloquence is gone

And, just like that, the eloquence is gone
Usually when I get depressed, there’s a stage where I need to write. I used to squirrel away ruled notebooks in my bedroom and write in them, but then I would get paranoid that my parents knew I was writing in them and would look for them and read them. I wanted to write about... Read more »
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How significant others can help their mentally ill partners with anxiety and depression Part 2

You can read the first installment here; I will continue adding more posts as I get more feedback from people. Don’t compare us to someone else. We run into the same problem, ourselves, and it’s wholly self-defeating. “She had postpartum depression but got better in 2 months” doesn’t mean we will, too. Or, “He started... Read more »

Two weeks ago, I was in turmoil. Today, I am back at work.

Two weeks ago, I was in turmoil. Today, I am back at work.
The trees along the walk to work were suddenly yellow. Some crunchy yellow and red leaves lined the sidewalk, with black moldy spots growing. Some fell onto the balconies. The playground sat there, empty. The same broken piece of asphalt lay on the sidewalk, moved slightly from where it was, two weeks ago. The other... Read more »

How significant others can help their mentally ill partners with anxiety and depression

It’s a common theme among those of us with depression and anxiety. Our partners care, we know they do–but sometimes they don’t understand. They may not have much experience with people who have depression, anxiety, or PTSD. Or maybe they’re the nerdy type who rely on facts more and don’t really “get” those emotional extremes.... Read more »
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"Share!" the toddler said

"Share!" the toddler said
“Share!” she says, signing it for good measure to make sure I understand. “Share!” But it doesn’t mean what she thinks it means. To her, it’s similar to the very common “MINE!” She says “Share!” when the dog sits on her blankie without permission. “Share!” when he is sitting on her brand new toddler bed,... Read more »

Non-profits and the Wells Fargo connection: toxic work environments

A non-profit has a budget crisis. They then go through attrition, layoffs, and other budget cuts. Higher-ups emphasize continuity of services to users, trying to keep the budget cuts invisible. Because many non-profit employees do truly care about their users, they take on more work, and the ones facing the public try to remain available... Read more »

Why I didn't post on World Mental Health Day

World Mental Health Day was yesterday. To be honest, I kind of forgot, until so many of my Facebook friends and pages posted about it. What good timing, though, because I went to yet another appointment to solidify my treatment plan for this godawful anxiety and depression and the other detritus floating around in my... Read more »
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When the organized anxious parent is sick

I’m the coordinator in the family; it keeps my anxiety at bay. I need to know what is happening on what day at what time and whether it might end early or run over or what might impact travel time. I need to know the “there’s talk of such and such happening, but i have... Read more »