Boy, some things are not exactly what they seem. You would think at my age and decades of experience, I would know this by now. But I don’t, and that pisses me off!
Call me a hopeless romantic, call me the glass-is-half-full kinda gal, but I always tend to look at the bright side of a situation. I always tend to see the positive in everything, and when it comes to people, I immediately trust you until you give me a reason not to.
I know, stupid, right? But that’s how I’ve always been, and I have been burned six ways from Sunday with this mindset. I can’t help the way I think, it’s like a wiring thing with me. Maybe because I was raised by decent people to always be pure and honest...who knows. But I sometimes wonder if this is a blessing or a curse.
I previously posted about my journey for the perfect job. And eventually, I thought I found it. But sometimes what is presented is not as it seems. The job itself was perfect, yet the obstacles that were thrown in my way made completing my job almost impossible. When brick walls are thrown up, I do my best to jump over them, and am usually successful. Yet sometimes, when you hit a brick wall, that’s all it will ever be. And then you’re left to make the decision to continue to bang your head or walk away.
Walking away is never easy, especially with someone that throws their heart and soul into everything they do. …However, depending on the situation, walking away makes more sense.
Yes, it sucks, and it’s a huge disappointment. But sometimes when you travel down a road towards a specific journey, the road turns out not exactly as it seemed. The first step is recognizing this, then having the courage to walk away in your best interest, and having the faith in yourself that you've made the right choice.
I made a decision, and I completely own it. This experience just proves to me that something better is waiting for me. And I’ll be here, with open arms and an open heart.
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