It's official -- gay rumors bug Hugh Jackman's wife. That's reasonable. I can only imagine it'd be frustrating to find out the man you're married to has questionable heterosexuality in the dim view of the public. It'd be almost as frustrating as the eerie realization that your husband is Hugh Jackman, and the subsequent investigation into how such a thing could happen.
Haha! Just kidding, powerful Hugh Jackman publicity machine! Hugh is awesome! Were I a woman, or a consenting gay man in the state of Illinois two weeks from now, I would gladly engage in legal matrimony with such a stunning specimen of all that is correctly masculine. The armed, muscular men sent by the Lou Coulson Agency wearing matched and ill-fitting pinstriped suits and currently observing me type have no persuasive effect on this opinion. Hugh Jackman is boss.
Here's the thing, though: Hugh is boss. This guy basically runs his own career, the way he decides to. He takes the projects he wants to take, and turns down the ones that don't interest him. Employers seek him out, not the other way around. This is true of most high-profile actors, not just Hugh Jackman. But Hugh Jackman and those nasty rumors are trending right now, so who better to illustrate the point I'm about to make?
My goal is to operate with that kind of autonomy...with or without the superstardom. For years, I've been working towards achieving that sort of independence, but have as yet failed. Through writing and performing, as well as occasionally other paid services, it's been my goal to close the chapter on conventional employment for longer than I'd care to admit. It's a long road, though, and it's not so simple. Also, I engage in a fair amount of self-sabotage, but let's not focus on that.
Why do I want to be independent of a traditional job? There are tons and tons of perks to a regular job, not the least of which are insurance, benefits, and steady income. For me, honestly, it's just a personality issue. I'm not built that way, and I've spent too much time grinding wheels against management structures that don't care much about professional development. This video in my "Your Company's Creative Team" series might just help explain a bit better:
The fact that I engage in a fair amount of individual enterprise means that I end up taking lots of working vacations. As a matter of fact, I don't actually remember the last time I took a good, solid, real vacation of pure leisure. The last four "vacations" from my formal employment have all been working engagements; either stand-up comedy or writing related. I'm embarking on another one this weekend and most of next week for some book research.
Originally, this was supposed to be a real, honest vacation to Panama or Nicaragua. But then this contract came along, and the way my mind works, every portfolio piece is one step closer to that mystical level of autonomy...so how was I supposed to say no? The rub is, though, that no vacations across an extended period of time really contributes to negative attitudes. Not being able to escape work -- whether it be a "real job" or "independent" -- really drives me towards impatience and irritation as a default mood. That's no good, not for me, not for the people in my life, and not for clients.
So here's what's going to happen: the three people who actually read this blog are going to suggest vacation ideas, destinations, celebrations, events, whatever, in the comments section. And I will take the trip that sounds best to me later this year, over the summer or in early autumn. And I will write a series of blogs about the trip with associated photographs and perhaps even video. Seriously. Come on ChicagoNow readers, get engaged, toss me a bone.