A week ago, I shared the story of my journey into the great beyond and back. How over training and not listening to my body, killed me.
I received a great deal of well wishes and a few slaps in the face. I thank you all.
Now, it is day #1. I am cleared to exercise, my workout from Coach Jennifer Harrison , a half hour of walking.
5 short months ago, I would have laughed at that, probably made a call to question exactly why I was doing something so lame.
That was then, this is now. I am scared, nervous and not sure if I can make it through. Iused to have the mind of a titan. Pain didn't matter, sleep didn't matter, all that mattered was moving forward at all costs. That is replaced by caution, anxiety and fear.
Then and now.
Resting Heart Beat THEN- 50 NOW- 68
Weight THEN- 225 NOW- 245
Body Fat THEN- 15% NOW- 26%
My muscles and lungs are weak, it's as if I am starting completely over. "Cup is half full," I am motivated by the people I have met along my journey to this point. The people who have it much harder than me, the people who have faced much greater adversity and have come out victorious.
Melissa Stockwell is a source of inspiration. A war hero, amputee and world class athlete, Stockwell has true strength and courage. She has looked adversity in the eye and managed to keep on going, no matter what. Besides being motivation for myself, she is helping others see their true potential as a part of Dare2tri paratriathlon club.
This club will be serving youth, adults and injured service members who have a physical disability such as an amputation, spinal cord injury, stroke, spina bifida, cerebral palsy as well as those with visual impairments or who are blind. From beginner to advanced athletes,the motto of their club is "one inspires many."
I have two good legs, working arms, my sight, hearing and most of my hair, I am blessed.
I am lucky to be working with a coach that inspires and understands her athletes, Jennifer Harrison. We have talked, set up rules and a route towards success. The definition of what success looks like is completely different than 5 months ago. but none the less important or meaningful.
Today, I start walking. We all did at one time, I am back to square one, scared, excited, motivated and promise to be "good."