This hype over New Year's resolutions is over done. Seriously. If you can't keep your goals in order, I don't want to know you. People should always have goals, both short and long term, don't you agree?
The last two years have kept me busy with resolutions, but I've also kept them going. For instance, two years ago I had made a resolution to wear more dresses and skirts. Done. I bought nothing but dresses and skirts that year. Last year, my goal was to get my blood sugars down to a healthy level, you know, being diabetic and all. Done. I also wanted to be healthier, but that happened during the year when I decided to stop drinking alcohol.
What about 2012? Well, now that I know the hype over the end of days is completely over done and there's really nothing stating that the world is going to end, I've lost my sense of urgency. Here I was, convinced that I had to write my great American novel this year because it would be all I had left to do in my life (yeah, right). Now what do I do? I think I'm going to start writing it.
Do you know how many times I've tried writing a book? Or beginning a book? I can't even count. I would sit at my computer saying, "OK, this is it. This is it." And what came out? Garbage.
Now, the question is, what do I write about? Someone once told me to write about my diabetic life. How exciting would that be? A diabetic Latina out to rule the world with her pump at her side. Nah. Boring. Lame.
What about a book out to set the record straight about life with diabetes? Nah. I'll leave that to the doctors and scientists who are studying diabetes in the body. Because at this point, I'm set with my ways and I know how to control myself... I think. I've been running high recently. But who wants to hear about that? It's just the holidays, to tell you the truth. The cookies, the candy, the delicious fatty foods. Oh the glory of consuming hot, starchiness!
I've let myself go the last few weeks. What a way to start the New Year! But seriously, working on it shouldn't be this difficult-- to eat healthy and be stable-- but it is. What if I write a book about the mental issues tied into food and eating? That would take a crap load of research, you know?
The other question is always "Fiction" or "Non-fiction"? What do I do? It's easier to make things up, isn't it? A woman, dying of diabetes because she never took care of herself. Wouldn't that be exciting? I mean, it's a story that's been talked about but has it ever been told? I don't know. Why does it have to be about diabetes anyway?
But the point to all this is, I'm going to keep writing and find something worth discussing in a long-winded type of way. You get me? That's my resolution. Now, just to find the motivation to get started...