When you do something for too long or you try to keep something up over an extended period of time, there's nothing like taking a step back and relaxing once in a while, right?
We've all done it, trying to diet, exericse or just be nice to people. Ok, I digress. But many times people don't realize that the upkeep of diabetes and health is sometimes exhausting. You work so hard to keep yourself in check and in balance that at some points, you just want to take a break and not be on top of yourself when thinking about carb intake, checking yourself too often or limiting your sugar intake.
There's something called the burn out. Just like in everything else, it means the same thing. You get tired of doing all the work, that you just do enough to get by. Although this can be dangerous, it usually isn't. People have been known to continue taking their insulin, but just enough to keep everything balanced and on point. It's just enough to get by and know that you're not going to keel over and die any time soon.
There are points where I get like that. You decide to eat the muffin, eat the chips and you see the numbers on the rise, only to take the insulin and bring it back down. I bring it back down but I'm just not on top of it. And with my luck and mindset, this always happens right before I'm going to see my endocrinologist. Always. I'm going to see her Thursday. I just went to get my blood work done on Saturday, so I'm hoping she has good news to report.
It's typically after that meeting where I get back on board and everything starts getting back to normal and moving smoothly. I always tell myself I'm going to get back on it, I just always wait until tomorrow. The classic procrastination move. I was doing it right not too long ago and I plan on getting back on that path. A lot of it has to do with stress and exhaustion. Sometimes that muffin or cookie helps you feel better psychologically, but it's the will power that will come in and over take that desire.
I'm going to get back on track. I know it. Let's get back on and keep going!
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