I'm Kinky and I Know It

Let me introduce myself, I am Mistress Julie. I have been in the Chicago S&M scene for a little over 12 years now and how I got into it is a very interesting story.

I was dating a guy for a couple of years and all of a sudden he just got scared of commitment and felt everyone was pressuring him to make a decision. Well, obviously I was not it or in it. After 2 weeks of sobbing, not eating and just feeling pity for myself I turned on my Yahoo Messenger and starting chatting with friends and just trying to get myself back out there in the singles scene. I did not know what I was getting into that night when someone messaged me asking "Would you like to be my Mistress?"

I, like many women, went ballistic! What was this guy thinking? Does he really think I would put myself in a position with a man that is married? The angry woman in me let him have it from "I am not some floozie that just sleeps with any married guy" to "I didn't know there were such audacious pigs out there." After about 20 minutes and some websites I was calming down and realizing that he was suggesting something I had only read in a series of books by Anne Rice,The Sleeping Beauty Trilogy.

This is where life took a turn for the kinky for me. I read so much in a weekend I felt my head was going to explode. I found that I had been kinky most of my life and that many things I had boyfriends doing were fetishes and I finally had a name to what I had been interested in. I loved to be spanked and having my hair pulled. I often imagined my boyfriends in the past wearing wigs and dressing them up. I thought something was wrong with me but I found it is normal and there were others out there like me.

I joined a couple of websites that are set up to meet other people like myself, much like dating sites but for other kinky people. After getting over the fear of meeting those that are into S&M, I joined a local Yahoo group and started attending sloshes (friday night meet and greets over drinks) and munches (saturday evening meet and greets over appetizers or dinner).

My first munch was followed up by going to my very first public play space that was called Tina's Place. Tina's Place was a great place to get to know people in the scene in and around Chicago. The couple that owned and ran Tina's Place were so warm and welcoming to me being the newbie 12 years ago that they are still in my life now as very close friends. Tina's Place is now closed but I will always have the memories of the early days meeting men and playing with them as I was learning various things from flogging, rope bondage, suspension, wax play, fire play and so many other things I will discuss in future blogs.

Over the past 12 years I have been looking for a permanent partner in the scene and have found many fakes, flakes and phonies, but this does not stop me from learning and playing until I find the right one I would make my alpha submissive.

This blog will be a place for you to learn about the S&M scene in a neutral light, anonymously submit questions or concerns you might have about anything in the scene and for me to share my past and current experiences.

Please submit questions to MistressJulie.ChicagoIL@gmail.com or tweet me at Mistress_Julie. No question is too dumb to ask. I have been in your position at one point in my life and have learned a lot from the many people that have come and gone over the years.

*Disclaimer: Comments will be monitored due to the contents of future blogs.

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