Yesterday I Cried.

Yesterday I cried, not because I lost anything or anyone, but because I just felt an overwhelming sense of grief. No, this was not like the premenstrual barrage of emotions that women generally feel/express, but all of a sudden, I began to look at life and just cry.

  • I realized that someone was shot during a festival that has been a tradition for several families on the south side of Chicago.  I realized that the values and safety we once knew as children, are not available for my children and their children.
  • I saw two associates decide that they were going to follow God's plan for their lives, and move out of Illinois, while I on the other hand still await clarity and direction.
  • I sat at the foot of a dear Apostle and heard that the best is yet to come if we draw nearer to God and receive his plan and I was excited!
  • My mother decided she no longer wanted to share her retirement with grandchildren, leaving me without childcare, and
  • I heard a family member tell another family member that they were jealous and judgmental, and no one wanted to talk to them.  Not only was this untrue, but I felt the sadness shared and received.
  • I saw the results of the degradation of  a marriage and heard the hate slung  upon the spouse....then I broke!

In the midst of all of this, I remembered that I have a friend that is closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:24) and will never leave nor forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6)!

So I began to pray. I began to pray for this city. I began to pray for my friends as they travel down new paths, and for my family.  Lastly, I began to pray for myself.

As I groaned and cried and prayed, I was thankful for the intercession (because that moment could have been what Oprah would calls an "ugly (cry) prayer")

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.  Romans 8: 26-27

When I got up, I felt better.  I felt refreshed!  I also received a phone call from my Naomi (see Noami post here) and she confirmed what I had received, and prayed again!

Sometimes, we go through patches in life where we cannot continue to move/act as we were once comfortable doing.  That is when we must stop, reconnect with God (through prayer and fasting), and allow him to take the wheel.  YES, this is hard to do, but if we don't  either a friend/family member will recognize and try to assist or a breakdown is sure to come!

I like this #uplift received from Pastor Hart Ramsey because it came right on time!

Hart Ramsey #UPLIFT From @ItsSandei

Hart Ramsey #UPLIFT
From @ItsSandei

Please know when to #STAND DOWN and/or Cry!



Do you need to cry or #standdown?

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