"God is always listening, but He will not always respond unless you ask" - Geneva Giglio
I have been MIA with my blog updates and to be honest there is no excuse. It wasn’t as if I haven’t had one hour to spare, to collect my thoughts, and share them with the world. I have had the time, just not the passion. And although that hurts me to even type, it is the truth. I thought I had lost my inner voice. The only voice my fingers will listen to. When I sat in front of my laptop, ready for my therapy, my fingers remained still. My hands rested on my keyboard unmoved, unmotivated, and uninspired by the silence of my intuition and deafened by my new numbness. Months have passed and I have been waiting to be inspired, I was waiting for that voice to return and for words to burst through my fingertips. While I have been waiting it made me wonder if every gift, talent, or opportunity has an expiration date. Was my passiveness actually creating more distance between my heart, mind, and soul? I have been waiting with lifeless fingers and no driving thoughts thinking that maybe there is an expiration date.
Maybe God gives up on you. Maybe He gave up on me.
Trust me, that statement does not sound right to me either. It is actually completely the opposite of how I feel. But I would be lying if I said I have not been exploring this idea. I have always known that it was His voice that would whisper to me, and it was his love and passion that would fuel my soul. So when my inner silence took over, I thought to myself that maybe He had given up on me. He blessed me, showed me how to listen and respond to the Holy Spirit that spoke through me, and now it was gone.
God gives so he can also take away right? Wrong.
And although throughout these months I may have been inclined to agree with that statement, I know where my heart is and it is with Him. God has created gifts within all of us, and sometimes it takes a lifetime to discover them. But when you do, your purpose on this Earth is so much more meaningful. God wants to further His kingdom, which means spreading positivity and light through darkened days. He would not want to destroy something that is good but, we do.
I believe this was a lesson learned for me and a reminder that I have to always give credit where credit is due. God never left me, the voice was always whispering to me, but I just chose to ignore it. When we choose to ignore His will and not accept His grace he does not leave your side He just cannot hold your hand until you unclench your fist.
I’m back, with one hand on the keyboard and the other interlocked with His.
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