Posts in category "FUCK"

What it feels like to be an Alcoholic

At first it takes away all your fear.  That drink just warms you all over and suddenly you have confidence and you are the girl you always wanted to be.  All your qualms about being with other people, with men, just vanish. Melt away.  You think you’ve found your golden ticket.  The answer to all... Read more »

The Most Terrifying Words: I CAN'T FIND MY SON

There was a primal roar heard throughout the state of Illinois yesterday. So loud and full of anguish and fear that cars crashed and buildings crumbled and glasses shattered in everyone’s hands. Only no one heard it because nothing came out.Like those nightmares I’ve had my entire life where I’m screaming and no one hears... Read more »

Donna Day 2015: Baby You're a Firework

Today is Donna Day.  This year is the 4th year I’ve written about sweet Donna and her mama.  My previous posts are here and here.  I really loved those posts.  I love them as much today as I did when I wrote them. But it feels like we keep repeating ourselves.  Let’s work to stop that. The first... Read more »

Reeks of Compassion

You never know who you will find inside the disguise.  The protection.  The armor. Just look in her eyes.  Just smell his breath.  Just try to imagine combing her course twisted hair.  Just think what his skin looks like underneath that layer of grime.  He can’t remember the last time he went to the dentist... Read more »

I Just Want to Post Pictures of My Cute Kids and Funny Shit About Cats

I don’t need to debate if God is real or if there is life after death or more importantly, try to CHANGE YOUR MIND.  Your mind is yours, dude. I hold no power there.  Your beliefs are yours and my beliefs are mine.  That’s that.  It’s taken me a long time to accept that, but... Read more »

You looked kind of drunk

“You looked kind of drunk in that picture you sent me last night.” My husband casually said that the next day and I didn’t think anything of it. Kind of laughed it off.  Until we were out for a walk with our twin toddlers and it hit me. “Did you seriously think I was drinking... Read more »

Damn, I look good in this swimsuit

Our next door neighbors have a pool.  Both the mom and the teenage daughter are outside in the pool and just walking around their yard devil may care in their swimsuits all the time.  And I am in awe.  You see as far back as I can remember, to when I was a young girl,... Read more »

When the rains don't stop

There was a DERECHO in Chicagoland on Monday night. Oh sure, everybody overreacts to weather and OMG the sky is falling and it’s always the worst storm ever, but this was for real shit.  This was no kidding, streams of water through our yard and down our stairs into a drain that couldn’t possibly handle... Read more »

Being Sober and Taking a Drink is NOT the End

I don’t like the “r” word.  This word rehabs (another “r” word) want us to use is “relapse”.  I hate that word and I hate the notion that everybody relapses.  They don’t.  They don’t have to.  It’s not part of sobriety or recovery.  It’s not.  Let’s call it what it is, if you are sober... Read more »

Thank You Alanis Morissette

Like many of us who were coming of age in the mid-nineties, she was our voice.  She was our anger that we couldn’t quite focus enough to create anything purposeful except, well anger.  When Jagged Little Pill came out in 1995, I had just graduated college and was living in my parents basement waiting tables... Read more »
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