I had just heard "no" one too many times.
My last major interview, which I thought went well, did not result in a job offer.
I was frustrated, angry and disappointed. I was royally pissed off and didn't really care who knew it.
My gracious spirit definitely had an expiration date.
I had gotten past initial phone screens and was invited to face to face interviews but wasn't able to close the deal. This wasn't happening once, but multiple times.
I was at my wit's end.
I sat and stewed and wallowed in self pity.
Eventually, I dried my tears and licked my emotional wounds. Sitting on my couch, I wondered about my next move.
I had to be the unluckiest person in the world. What did I do to deserve all of this?
Literally out of the blue, it occurred to me that perhaps I was the problem.
My moment of clarity allowed me to see that potential employers, much like the rest of the world, don't owe you anything. They also, much like the rest of the world, won't tell you when you're getting it wrong.
That's not their job.
They're here to find the best person that will fit into their culture while achieving the stated goal.
Perhaps my qualifications and winning personality weren't coming across in a positive manner during my face to face interviews.
So I had a choice.
I could sit around and be bitter and continue to shake my fist at the heavens or I could tackle a potential problem I didn't even know I had.
Self actualization is one thing; it's simply the desire to achieve a goal.
Taking the journey to get there is a different story.
I didn't have a clue how to find out if I was a bad interview but I definitely had to reach out for help.
Because I'm just tired of hearing the word "no."
It was time to turn it into a "yes."