Two weeks ago I was told that I would lose my contracting job in the suburbs.
My last day is this Friday.
And yes, the timing absolutely sucks.
The beginning of December is not a time when employers are clamoring at the gates to initiate the hiring process. So it may be a little while before I find a suitable contract or full time position.
That means I have to go back on unemployment and the mere thought of it reduces me to tears.
Not only will I have to wait a majority of December before I see an unemployment check, but my plan to lift myself out of debt has now officially been derailed.
Money has more or less been a concern since I lost my full time job in August of 2007. But when you add extensive debt from being out of work for two years, that concern grows into a full blown panic.
The horrible feeling that I’ll always be behind on my bills---that I can’t (or won’t) get financially stable.
Deciding if I should pay a utility bill or buy food.
Wondering how to honor the payment arrangements with creditors who will not hesitate to sue me---making it harder to secure a full time job when a background check is performed.
The fact that I have to go to friends that I’ve owed money to for quite some time and ask them to wait a little bit longer.
It’s utterly defeating.
My savings & assets were depleted after the first layoff; the second layoff merely cemented my debtor status.
At this point, who knows what additional demotions the 3rd layoff will bring?
It really made for a crappy Thanksgiving. It’s going to make for an even crappier Christmas.
Economic Insecurity? Baby, I’m the poster child.