Category: sobriety

Only the Strong Survive - FAKE NEWS

As I sit here on this grey, rainy day, I reflect on all I’ve been strong through. Alcoholism, infertility, anxiety, depression, IVF, pregnancy, childbirth, being a mom of twins, working full time, recovery. Yes, I am strong as hell. But that doesn’t always serve me so well, now does it. I’m dealing with work situations... Read more »

I think I have a problem with drinking

I get this a lot. From friends, family, friends of friends, co-workers, people who read my blog and write me to share their stories.  People say, “I don’t know how to start this so I guess I’ll just say, I think I have a problem with drinking”. If you were to look in my inbox... Read more »

Sometimes Darkness Spurs Hope and Gratitude

That gratitude that washes over as we walk the neighborhood at night and see the homes aglow with warmth and coziness (cozy is a privilege) and knowing I’m right where I’m meant to be. I’m not filled with longing to be in those home any longer, for I have my own place. Not just physically... Read more »
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Everything is terrible! Here is some good stuff to counter balance the horrors

I watched Patton Oswalt’s new stand up recently.  It was really good.  I cried and laughed and shook my head and marveled at how he can turn his pain and laughter through pain into something we can all relate to. Among his many gems he did a bit about “I wonder how many AA chips... Read more »

Sobriety Sweet 16

Maybe it’s being smack in the middle of the fuck-it-forties, maybe it’s waking up every single morning and having my heart in my throat as to what horrendous things have happened as we slept, but this sobriety sweet 16 seems more fragile now than ever. I remember very little about actually being 16.  I remember... Read more »

An Open Letter to Makers, Sellers, and Buyers of the Drunk Wives Matter Tumbler

“It’s like mockery, entitlement, and tone deafness all at once. It’s like spinning plates only the plates are made of actual garbage.” – my kick ass favorite friend Terry. An Open Letter to Makers, Sellers, and Buyers of the Drunk Wives Matter Tumbler: I found your ad for your “Drunk Wives Matter” tumbler on my... Read more »
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Is Alcoholism a Disease or a Choice?

I have these conversations almost daily.  Somebody is having problems with a family member or friend or themselves and so they ask me these same questions as in this recent text from a friend asking my opinion – I’m not saying everyone is the same, but the sickness is almost always the same.  And it always... Read more »

Bottle Spotting Bingo

There’s this sick game I play and maybe you do it too. It’s probably mostly alcoholics like me who can spot a bottle a mile away. Like a twisted game of booze bingo.  And then I make up stories of the people who left them there. The discarded. The self medication aftermath. Is there a reason... Read more »

The Pain We Carry While Reaping Great Joy

I’ve been limping around for roughly a month now.  Physically limping, as opposed to emotionally limping, which seems to happen far more often.  Somehow, I sprained my ankle, though I cannot recall how I did it.  It’s part of me now.  My husband keeps telling me to get a brace or to stay off of it... Read more »
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But You Don't Look Like an Alcoholic

As I was squeezing lemons into my water this morning in the office kitchen, a co-worker laughed and asked, “are you making sangria?” I then screamed “NO I AM NOT BECAUSE I AM A RAGING ALCOHOLIC HOW DARE YOU – YOU – YOU IGNORAMUS” and ran out of the kitchen with the sting of lemon burning... Read more »