Posts in category "Infertility"

I Never Wanted Kids

I rarely take taxis anymore, but when I do I get extremely nauseous. The minute I enter, maybe even before my feet hit the floor, the bile rises to my throat before I can ask, “can you please roll my window down back here?” Why do all taxis smell the same?  It’s not an altogether terrible... Read more »

Keep Living Until You Feel Alive Again

I look at my social media memories every morning as part of my checks – Email – Check Facebook – Check Twitter – Check Instagram – Check Neko Atsume – MAN THOSE CATS MUST BE HUNGRY – Check Kids – throw some cereal their way – CHECK Today I looked and saw this – As... Read more »

To the Woman at the Park Heartbroken with Infertility

To the woman at the park heartbroken with infertility, Thank you.  Thank you for approaching us right away and saying hello. Thank you for asking if they are twins.  YES. Yes they are and they are, “HEY HOW OLD ARE YOU TWO?” “TWO.  WE GONNA BE FREE ON OUR BIRFDAY.” Thank you for NOT immediately... Read more »
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Just a Mom: On Feminism and Infertility and Hope

It’s really pretty shocking to me when I hear it.  Somebody asks a woman what they do (which, hello, we all do 8 million things so how can we even answer this question) and I hear her say, “Oh, I’m just a mom.” SCREECHING HALT. What did she just say?  Did she use the words... Read more »

Before I was your mom

Hey kids.  I know it’s hard to believe, but I was alive a long time before I became your mom.  Before I ever knew your names or what you would look like, before I knew your smell or your mischievous laughter, there was a woman who lived about three lifetimes to be ready.  I don’t... Read more »

The Girl on the Train Made Me Remember: Blackouts are Not Normal

I usually don’t see myself taking a drink.  It’s more the aftermath. The stretch of time between being drunk and what happens next is what is most terrifying.  All of a sudden in what seems like a 5 minute period of time, I’m back on my face with nothing to cling to and nothing to... Read more »
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Thrift Store Earrings of Hope

Years ago I was SURE that I didn’t want kids.  NEVER.  NEVER EVER EVER.*   I didn’t have a motherly instinct. I certainly didn’t want to bring another life into the world that I could screw up. I was also in a series of relationships that made me question everything about myself and wonder why... Read more »

I Saw This Family at the Dollar Store

When you troll the dollar stores for years in search of paper plates and straws and cat toys and party favors and completely inedible foods, you never even walk down the toy aisle. Except when you are looking for your nephews and then you think LET’S JUST KEEP LIKING LIGHT UP STICKS FOREVER, can we... Read more »

In Defense of IVF

There’s been a lot of backlash against a couple designers in the news lately who came out and called my babies synthetic and unnatural.  MY BABIES. For no reason other than they like to stir the pot I would imagine.  I can’t believe I have to write this post but I will. For myself and... Read more »
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From Homelessness to Parenthood: If This Backpack Could Talk

It’s been used as a pillow and a blanket on park benches and under trees. It’s been used as a closet for your one other set of clothing. It’s been used as a weapon to ward off other homeless folks trying to steal your $.37. It’s been used as a safe for that same $.37.... Read more »