Category: fear

What Does a Whore Look Like?

As I stared in the ladies room bathroom mirror, I pulled out three far too long eyebrow hairs and deposited them into the garbage.  I glanced at my cleavage and reveled in how I still got it going on in the décolletage area.  Then I re-applied my red lipstick. Some might say I look like... Read more »

I Almost Punched a Little Girl at the Library

BUT I DIDN’T.  Don’t call the authorities on me. I am a lover, not a fighter. I mean thank gods for that impulse control we can harness, amiright? OH THIS GIRL. Here’s the scene.  The girl (3 or maybe 4 years old) is at the train table, you know train tracks and about 20 different... Read more »

Before I was your mom

Hey kids.  I know it’s hard to believe, but I was alive a long time before I became your mom.  Before I ever knew your names or what you would look like, before I knew your smell or your mischievous laughter, there was a woman who lived about three lifetimes to be ready.  I don’t... Read more »
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Dear Dad at the Park Calling Your Son Chicken for Not Wanting to Slide

I can’t get you out of my head.  Rather, I can’t get your boy out of my head. After I heard you say it for the third time, “WHAT ARE YOU CHICKEN?” as your boy was at the top of the slide taking in his options, my blood was boiling. It crushed my heart to... Read more »

What it feels like to be an Alcoholic

At first it takes away all your fear.  That drink just warms you all over and suddenly you have confidence and you are the girl you always wanted to be.  All your qualms about being with other people, with men, just vanish. Melt away.  You think you’ve found your golden ticket.  The answer to all... Read more »

How one hour completely turns my life around to gratitude

What can happen in one hour that is so completely transformative, so entirely life changing, so utterly unbelievable? I walk into a room with other like minded individuals.  We don’t all agree on everything, hell on most things, but on this one thing, we agree we need each other. I walk into a room of... Read more »
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The Butterfly the Finch and the Dragonfly

Walking from our home to the train, there is a finch on the sidewalk. Decomposing. Deteriorating. Quiet. Walking across the river into the Tower for work, across a long courtyard full of flower boxes and lush, expensive landscaping along the Chicago River, rests a tranquil little minute of an oasis amid the sky rises and... Read more »

I Saw This Family at the Dollar Store

When you troll the dollar stores for years in search of paper plates and straws and cat toys and party favors and completely inedible foods, you never even walk down the toy aisle. Except when you are looking for your nephews and then you think LET’S JUST KEEP LIKING LIGHT UP STICKS FOREVER, can we... Read more »

Donna Day 2015: Baby You're a Firework

Today is Donna Day.  This year is the 4th year I’ve written about sweet Donna and her mama.  My previous posts are here and here.  I really loved those posts.  I love them as much today as I did when I wrote them. But it feels like we keep repeating ourselves.  Let’s work to stop that. The first... Read more »
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Reeks of Compassion

You never know who you will find inside the disguise.  The protection.  The armor. Just look in her eyes.  Just smell his breath.  Just try to imagine combing her course twisted hair.  Just think what his skin looks like underneath that layer of grime.  He can’t remember the last time he went to the dentist... Read more »