Posts in category "fear"

Things moms think about at 5am

I cannot seem to sleep past 5am anymore.  No matter what day it is, no matter if I have to go to work or not, my eyes flip open at about 5am automatically every single day.  Our kids sleep until 6 or 6:30, but there I am, wide awake, full of anxiety and worry and... Read more »

Things I Love Thursday - Simple Pleasures with Little Kids

Today is my favorite. I know, I know.  There’s a lot going on and believe me, I’m weighed down by it all 24/7 just like you, but dammit if what’s right in front of me ain’t too good to be true. The sun was shining this morning in Chicago and as we’ve not had much... Read more »

If You Woke Up Today in Disbelief About the Election Results

I am in shock.  I am entirely saddened.  I am angry and confused and feel like I’ve been duped. Because, as my friend Jane wrote last night: This feels like: Fuck you, women don’t matter. Fuck you, black and brown people don’t matter. Fuck you, non-Christians don’t matter. Fuck you, trans and gay and bi... Read more »
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I Never Wanted Kids

I rarely take taxis anymore, but when I do I get extremely nauseous. The minute I enter, maybe even before my feet hit the floor, the bile rises to my throat before I can ask, “can you please roll my window down back here?” Why do all taxis smell the same?  It’s not an altogether terrible... Read more »

Giant Backpacks on Little Bodies - Preschool Begins

ALL I DO IS CRY.  I’m really really good at crying. I cry like it’s my freaking job. We had preschool orientation last night.  Because my husband was there, I held it together as we entered the room after weeks of prepping our kids for “school”.  While my girl has been really excited about making... Read more »

I’m angry but I’m still here. Stand with me.

This is a guest post from my friend Terry.  We’ve known each other for a few years now and have a kind of connection that is rare.  We both believe in spreading kindness, empathy and hope as much as possible and I value his point of view enormously.  I believe you will come away from... Read more »
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Love is Love is Love is Love is Love

You would think we were past this.  I certainly did.  You would think we wouldn’t need to shout it out from the rooftops that love is love is love is love, but we do.  We continue to promote our agenda of love and acceptance in all it’s forms and colors and shapes and sizes and... Read more »

I want to be an alcoholic when I grow up

I have this recurring dream.  Just one of many that takes me back to my desperation of being in the throes of my addiction.  I’m in my parent’s basement and in front of the cabinet where they kept their scant liquor bottles.  It’s bound up by one of those plastic tie locks because their daughter... Read more »

Keep Living Until You Feel Alive Again

I look at my social media memories every morning as part of my checks – Email – Check Facebook – Check Twitter – Check Instagram – Check Neko Atsume – MAN THOSE CATS MUST BE HUNGRY – Check Kids – throw some cereal their way – CHECK Today I looked and saw this – As... Read more »
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On Finding Hope and Joy and Goodness in the Midst of this Terrible World

It seems that there is a lot of terrible awful stuff going on in the world, and there really is.  Like, unbelievable, sob in the corner while clasping your blankie terrible stuff.  Racism, dirty politics, religion used for evil, war, starvation, rape, torture, GUNS GUNS GUNS* just to name a few.  Things that you could... Read more »