Posts in category "fear"

I’m angry but I’m still here. Stand with me.

This is a guest post from my friend Terry.  We’ve known each other for a few years now and have a kind of connection that is rare.  We both believe in spreading kindness, empathy and hope as much as possible and I value his point of view enormously.  I believe you will come away from... Read more »

Love is Love is Love is Love is Love

You would think we were past this.  I certainly did.  You would think we wouldn’t need to shout it out from the rooftops that love is love is love is love, but we do.  We continue to promote our agenda of love and acceptance in all it’s forms and colors and shapes and sizes and... Read more »

I want to be an alcoholic when I grow up

I have this recurring dream.  Just one of many that takes me back to my desperation of being in the throes of my addiction.  I’m in my parent’s basement and in front of the cabinet where they kept their scant liquor bottles.  It’s bound up by one of those plastic tie locks because their daughter... Read more »
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Keep Living Until You Feel Alive Again

I look at my social media memories every morning as part of my checks - Email – Check Facebook – Check Twitter – Check Instagram – Check Neko Atsume – MAN THOSE CATS MUST BE HUNGRY – Check Kids – throw some cereal their way – CHECK Today I looked and saw this - As... Read more »

On Finding Hope and Joy and Goodness in the Midst of this Terrible World

It seems that there is a lot of terrible awful stuff going on in the world, and there really is.  Like, unbelievable, sob in the corner while clasping your blankie terrible stuff.  Racism, dirty politics, religion used for evil, war, starvation, rape, torture, GUNS GUNS GUNS* just to name a few.  Things that you could... Read more »

What Does a Whore Look Like?

As I stared in the office ladies room bathroom mirror I pulled the three really long eyebrow hairs and deposited them into the garbage.  I stared at my cleavage and reveled in how I still got it going on in the neck and breastal area.  Then I re-applied my red lipstick. Some might say I... Read more »
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I Almost Punched a Little Girl at the Library

BUT I DIDN’T.  Don’t call the authorities on me. I am a lover, not a fighter. I mean thank gods for that impulse control we can harness, amiright? OH THIS GIRL. Here’s the scene.  The girl (3 or maybe 4 years old) is at the train table, you know train tracks and about 20 different... Read more »

Before I was your mom

Hey kids.  I know it’s hard to believe, but I was alive a long time before I became your mom.  Before I ever knew your names or what you would look like, before I knew your smell or your mischievous laughter, there was a woman who lived about three lifetimes to be ready.  I don’t... Read more »

Dear Dad at the Park Calling Your Son Chicken for Not Wanting to Slide

I can’t get you out of my head.  Rather, I can’t get your boy out of my head. After I heard you say it for the third time, “WHAT ARE YOU CHICKEN?” as your boy was at the top of the slide taking in his options, my blood was boiling. It crushed my heart to... Read more »
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What it feels like to be an Alcoholic

At first it takes away all your fear.  That drink just warms you all over and suddenly you have confidence and you are the girl you always wanted to be.  All your qualms about being with other people, with men, just vanish. Melt away.  You think you’ve found your golden ticket.  The answer to all... Read more »