What would you say to your teenage self?

What would you say to your teenage self?
14 year old Gwyn

What would you say to your teenage self?

This question comes to me at a time that I want to ponder back to how far I have come.  If I went back 20 years ago to tell my teenage self advice, what would it be?  I believe it is a healthy thought process to ponder these what if questions.

I would tell myself that no matter what happens in your life, keep in touch with the ones that love and appreciate you.  Keep the faith in God because he wont have you experience anything that you can not handle.  When I was a teen, my parents divorced and I went to three different high schools.

I would also advise myself to start saving my babysitting money because getting that Starter jacket is so not worth it because it will be out of style next week.  I would also tell myself that even though your belongings are in boxes, a home is in the heart and no one can take that from you.

Gwyn, you are a beautiful young lady that deserves happiness.  Continue to draw those beautiful drawings.  Continue to sing those pretty songs and love yourself for yourself.  You will be hurt by guys because in highschool and college they come and go.  A guy does not define who you are.

Now I know from experience that if I would not have dealt with the tragic experiences that I experienced, I would not be the woman I am today.  I never wish on anyone the following: divorce, homelessness, family members with mental illness, dysfunctional family times, moving 8 times in 4 years, abusive boyfriend, major car accident, and being raped during their teenage years.

I started gaining weight after I went though the tragic event of being raped when I was 16 years old.  I was hanging out with gang members and I was put into a very unsafe situation.  I know I turned to food to cope with that tragic event.

I didn't realize this part of my past until I saw Jacqui McCoy's episode from Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition last year because she dealt with the same thing.  I would tell my teenage to continue seeing a counselor and to surround myself with supportive people.  You didn't deserve that to happen to you and food is not a healthy coping skill.

Gwyn you will become an inspiration to many with your story of courage and fight.  Always know you are loved and cherished.  Be true to yourself.

2011 Gwyn

2011 Gwyn

I shared at my Weight Watchers meeting that before I joined for the 2nd time, I was the Gwyn that didn't like what she saw.  I would delete pictures or hide behind my son.  My stomach fat pushed on my organs as if I was pregnant.  I sure didn't like that feeling.  I also dealt with my feet going numb while I was driving because of the pressure of my weight on them while I was driving.

Always remember where you came from and how far you have come.

Today I love myself and enjoy pictures again.  I have worked hard and want to love life.

2011 in California with my son

2011 in California with my son

old shirt new body

old shirt new body

spoke at Weight Watchers meeting

spoke at Weight Watchers meeting

Sept 2013

Sept 2013

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