As a cancer survivor who is also active in the cancer community, I know a lot of people with cancer and I have been to a lot of funerals. Since my diagnosis on November 6, 2001, yes I remember the date and I have a tattoo on my leg, I have met hundreds of people with cancer. Some of them are people I meet once and know by face while others I have become close friends with.
I also get to meet cancer patients when a friend of a friend gets diagnosed, especially when it’s advanced colon cancer. I truly consider it an honor to talk to them and if I can give them even the slightest bit of encouragement, hope, faith, smile, or whatever, I will always take time out for whatever I am doing to talk to them.
The truth is, I don’t have the faintest idea why I am an 11-year stage 3-colon cancer survivor. I have met people with the same thing I had and I have been to their funerals. I have met people with other cancers, supposedly less severe than mine, and I have been to their funerals. I have been to funerals of kids, of adults, of friends, and to be quite honest, it’s not getting any easier and it truly is starting to suck even more.
I’m sick of people arguing over health insurance, gun control, government waste, a craft store not stocking their precious holiday decorations, and whatever else people want to get worked up about. Meanwhile people we love are dying of cancer. How have we not come up with a cure for this already?!?! Enough!!!
Enough of the cute pink ribbons on everything from dog collars to NFL players jock straps. Enough of the warning labels on cancer causing products and the GMO filled food. Enough of the steroids and whatever else they are injecting and spraying on our food and putting in the water. Enough enough enough!!! People are struggling here to try to stay healthy, at least some are, and it’s not getting better, it’s getting worse.
I know more people are getting cancer than ever before but I know that the death rates are also going down. That’s great but how about we start focusing on prevention instead of treatment! We wouldn’t dream of not taking our cars into the shop for an oil change. Why not? Because it would be foolish to only take it in there when something breaks. We also don’t put the cheap oil in. Why? Because that would be foolish. Our car deserves the best and it will last longer.
Then why aren’t we taking the same approach to health? The only way to change things is to speak up. Stop buying white bread and crap food. Then the people making it will see that we actually care about our health and start pushing the stuff our body needs.
I don’t want to get sidetracked though. I’ll save the healthy food rant for another time. Right now, I’m just trying to breathe. I know that God has a plan for all of us. I also know that there are times like today that I’m not understanding that plan but I am going with faith here as best as I can.
I’m just tired. I’m tired of seeing my friends die. I’m tired of shedding tears at funerals that didn’t have to happen. I’m tired of hearing about someone else hear the words “You have cancer”. I’m tired of going to a church and wondering “why not me”. I’m tired of getting dressed up with my wife to go to a church for the funeral of someone she knew so well and that I spent hours talking to about cancer. I’m tired of hearing the word "cancer". I’m really tired of it all.
I’m trusting You, Lord. I’m crying out to You. Please watch over our friend and her family. Give them an open heart to heal and to see that You truly are good. Watch over all the people and their families affected by cancer. Please give someone the wisdom to come up with a cure for this horrible disease.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make straight your paths.
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