I haven't written a post here in a while. Not because I have nothing to say, but because my gig that pays all the bills often keeps me too busy. At times, it keeps me too occupied to make a little extra money on the side. At this very moment, this habit is keeping me miles away from my child.
One of my worst habits is often considered my greatest strength in the office. I'm a hard worker who often goes above and beyond the call of duty to get the job done. While that doesn't sound like it should be considered a bad habit, for me it really is. I haven't quite figured out how to master the work life balance thing.
I've been told by loved ones and even co-workers that I need to ease up on working so much. There will be days or weeks that I try to do better, but then I end up right back at square one. I was sitting at my desk last week, and immediately broke down when asked what did I need help on. That question shouldn't have brought tears to my eyes, but it did. Why? Because, I had and still have so much on my plate that even being asked that question stressed me out.
A few people noticed my mini-breakdown and acknowledged it at different points of the day. It was then that I realized, my working too hard is not just a problem for me, but for everyone around me. In the office, it's a problem because stressed people are often unhappy and typically become burnt-out.
For loved ones, my bad habit often means that I'm coming home extra late, missing events and simply not available most of the time. I try my best to make sure that I give my family the same attention I give my work, which leaves even less time for me, and my sanity.
This week, I went straight from a fun-filled weekend as a bridesmaid in a destination wedding, to a three-now four-day business trip. The one thing these two trips have in common is that I had no sleep during or before. When I head home in the morning, I won't have a full day to rest. In fact, my next few weeks will likely involve minimal sleep or relaxation.
I've gotten so accustomed to over working myself that it feels normal. Anything less just doesn't feel right. I say this every year, but in 2016 I really need to break this bad habit!