Christmas is right around the corner, and I've been patiently waiting for the holiday spirit to touch my heart like it has done so many times in the past. I've done the typical things one does to celebrate the holiday such as holiday music, gift buying, holiday movies, giving money to the Salvation Army, even wearing an ugly sweater. So far, none of this has helped bring about the Christmas spirit. I'm starting to get concerned it isn't going to be coming my way this year.
Part of me worries I'm turning into a Scrooge, but I don't mind if other people enjoy the festive holiday and all that goes with it. I just sit and wish to myself I could have the same sense of enjoyment for the holiday as everyone else. Perhaps they're feeling the same way I am, but I wouldn't know it because the smiles on their face shine brightly like Christmas lights on a cold dark night.
I've been wondering what's different this year for me, and I can't figure it out. I've been employed for a few months in a good job, have some friends, and have caring family members, so it must be something else. Even my old go-to of doing a giving tree gift, or helping in a soup kitchen, hasn't done the trick. I need to stop trying to make the holiday spirit happen and let it come to me instead of me chasing after it. If that doesn't work, then I'm just not meant to have the holiday spirit this year.
As I finish this brief post, I really am trying to put a smile on my face and go through the motions so I don't ruin the holiday and the spirit behind it for others. There is one particular friend who adores it, and I don't want to show him any negativity. In fact, my present to him is a promise not to mention my favorite cartoon characters he finds stupid and pointless. So far, I'm keeping my vow not to mention it around him, so at least I'm doing one nice thing for someone :)
Finally, I saw an awesome sweater Candace Cameron Bure was wearing with Santa and Jesus getting along and that did put a smile on my face. Both symbols of the holiday can co-exist and even get along even if no one thinks it possible. To me, you can have both and enjoy them equally or in different ways.
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