Why I Walk in BCAN’s Annual Event

Why I Walk in BCAN’s Annual Event
I was diagnosed with bladder cancer in 2012. It was one of the worst years of my life. My family still feels the impact of the diagnosis even though I’m firmly in remission. In some ways, life after remission is harder, bringing with it depression, anxiety, and sometimes cold fear. Because my husband had just... Read more »

This year demands work

“And now let us believe in a long year that is given to us, new, untouched, full of things that have never been, full of work that has never been done, full of tasks, claims, and demands; and let us see that we learn to take it without letting fall too much of what it... Read more »

Life without power

I am cleaning out my refrigerator. Two jumbo black garbage bags are ready. Everything is going inside the bags. At least I think everything is. It is Thursday afternoon and power went down on Monday at 4:04 p.m. according to the electric clock upstairs, the result of a powerful storm that roared through Chicago. I... Read more »
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This is how to stop the rioting: white people must fight for justice because Black Lives Matter

Martin Luther King Jr said, “A riot is the language of the unheard.” The language that is unheard seems all too often, “I can’t breathe.” It is kneeling on one knee during the national anthem. It is hundreds of marchers saying, “Black lives matter.” It is raising arms above your head and begging, “Don’t shoot.”... Read more »

May you be happy. May you be safe. Lovingkindness in a pandemic.

I’m not exactly an optimist. Not really a fully committed pessimist either. Somewhere in the gray space in between. I want to believe in the best and sometimes I succeed. When depression descends I can see only the worst. Most days I waver between the two. I try hard to be rational, though I know... Read more »

"How to be Miserable" during a pandemic

I’ve written about this book before here. It’s a book that changed my life. You hear a lot about positivity and gratitude, both valuable and honorable qualities. But, they’re qualities that have a dark side. When I’m not in a positive state of mind or not in tune with positivity, I feel guilty, even ashamed.... Read more »
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Finding comfort in a troubled time

When my daughter was little she loved her pacifiers. They went with her everywhere. At bedtime after stories she’d get three of them. One for her mouth and the other two in her little toddler hands rubbing them against her eyes. I saved three of them and keep them in a drawer in my kitchen.... Read more »

Ten good things while sheltering in place

Thanks to Donna, who inspired this post. My neighborhood is friendlier My neighbors down the block have built a fire pit. From what I gather as I shamelessly eavesdrop, it’s built into the ground. Their two kids, one just graduated from high school and the other a college student, are home with them. Just about... Read more »

The "uncanny valley" and the grocery store: feeling reality recede

The "uncanny valley" and the grocery store: feeling reality recede
I’ve been trying to process why grocery shopping leaves me feeling in turns anxious and hopeless. Each time I go out, and I feel a compulsion to go any time we get close to running out of something, I come home feeling beaten up by life. My daughter has told me about the “uncanny valley,”... Read more »
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For our GSU 2020 graduates, in the time of the Corona virus

For our GSU 2020 graduates, in the time of the Corona virus
This graduation isn’t like others. We’re all tucked into our homes, cooking, working out, creating….or not. We might be sitting on the couch, curled up watching Netflix and eating cookies, bored but unable to muster the energy to do much else. Maybe we’re depressed, anxious, afraid. Those of you with school-aged children are your child’s... Read more »