How can it be that fuzzy teeth and stinky pits are why I need a job? I'll tell you how...
Today, as I was contemplating what to blog about, I knew my musings were likely to be about looking for work. I have been applying for full-time, part-time and temporary work on and off since last February. No luck yet.
I am a full-time mom, and I have been for over 11 years. At first, last February, the idea of going back to work full-time was such a stressful thought, I ended up in the ER with chest pain.
I was fine. No cardiac issues whatsoever. In fact, the cardiologist said that I am one of the healthiest "heart patients" he's ever seen. The diagnosis was stress.
Granted, there were some very stressful events taking place at that time, and it was a really good thing that I didn't get a job then. However, it started me on a journey I hadn't even thought about taking for another couple of years.
Now, with those major stressors gone, the kids in school, my South Dakota trip done, the hubby working full-duty again, I'm ready.
But I still haven't explained why the fuzzy teeth and stinky pits are why I need a job.
My hubby works odd shifts, and often times, he's home sleeping when I get up to get the kids off to school. In an attempt to not wake him, I do the barest of necessities and get out of the bedroom as quickly and quietly as I can.
Last week, the kids were in school, the dogs and the hubby were sleeping, and I was sitting on the couch folding laundry when I realized I'd forgotten to brush my teeth and put on deodorant; forget about actually taking a shower.
I realized that my teeth were fuzzy and my pits were stinky, because other than walking my kids to/from school, I had no where to go, no one to see and nothing but housework to look forward to that day.
I was a bit depressed at that thought.
Eleven years as a full-time mom makes this my longest tenure at a job, and it is a full-time job. There is always a lot to do. I am never not busy.
Unfortunately, I'm having a harder and harder time taking pleasure in dusting, vacuuming, washing/folding clothes, cleaning floors, washing windows, changing bedding, scrubbing toilets....the list really is endless.
I still like cooking, though, but the clean-up is no fun. At least at the fire house when I cooked, everyone else did the clean up.
My fuzzy teeth and stinky pits made me realize that if I don't have anywhere to be, or anything productive outside the home to do that day, I feel unmotivated to "gussy-up" for my family, who doesn't seem to notice one way or another.
If I had a job, I'd need to get up and get showered every day. I'd need to have a more disciplined schedule, because my time would be more restricted. I seem to get more done when I have less time and more to do. Isn't that crazy?
I'd feel that doing all the housework and all the household duties would no longer be just my job, and I'd feel better about having my hubby and my girls pitch in more.
I know that being a full-time mom is a blessing. I've loved being a full-time mom. I am ready to explore who else I am besides being a wife and mother.
Unfortunately, it is a really tough job-market right now. Several applications into this, and I still haven't had a phone call.
One friend told me today that her hubby sent out 50 resumes and didn't hear from a single one. That's not terribly encouraging.
Another friend told me about her Harvard MBA friend that was unemployed for 3 years and is now driving a Frito Lay delivery truck. Ugh. This is not really an option right now for me.
I'm not worried about it, though, because I know that when the timing and opportunity is right, God will open that door for me. I may be a bit frustrated, but I'm not worried. God's got this.
So, if fuzzy teeth and stinky pits are why I need a job, then so be it. Getting that job has become a challenge. I like challenges. I'm good at challenges. Bring it on - after I take a shower and brush my teeth.
Proverbs 12:25 (MSG)
25 Worry weighs us down; a cheerful word picks us up.
Matthew 7:11-12 (NIV)
11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.
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