It really sucks that medical science leaves you with so many unanswered questions. There is supposed to be a legitimate science behind medical care, but so many of the standard procedures are no more than trial and error. I hate it. I just want my grandma to be okay.
The doctors gave my grandma 6 months to live.
Cancer runs in my family. It took my grandfather. It took my aunt Sylvia. And now the doctors say its going to take my granny. I'm at a loss for words. How can you give up on a person's life? After a year of chemo, how can they tell us that they've accomplished nothing? Did the chemo therapy make her ovarian cancer worse?
My Granny Bird gave birth to 13 children, all with my grandpa, to whom she was married. After he passed away, she never dated another man. I love how she tells stories about her childhood. She's the reason why I know the history and culture of my family. I can't begin to tell you what she means to my family, and what she personally means to me. How the hell am I supposed to watch her slip away over a span of 6 months? She's been in and out of hospitals throughout Illinois for over a year. The more she visits the doctor, the worse her health becomes, or at least it sure seems that way. I'm gonna consult with every alternative medicine doctor, herbalist, naturopath, dietician, and anybody else who'll listen, because I can't stand the idea of her waiting to die. I can't. I don't even know if my mom and my aunts and uncles told my granny that she only has 6 months to live. I don't want to know that she knows she's dying.
I haven't cried about it yet. I always have a delayed reaction with stuff like this. But it sucks. I can't put into words the helplessness I feel. This is not right.
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deandrey duffie said:
I think thats really sad to afro braids on the fact that your granny got cancer and was to said to have six months to live.my condolesance and prayers goes out to you and your family. dont be so hard on your self neither and maybe its not a good idea to let your grandma know that she only have six months to live maybe god has other plans so dont worry and keep th faith.p.s yours truly deandrey
Garrard McClendon said:
Nikki: This is a moving post on your Granny...
Get the video camera out and get the stories from Granny Bird. She is living history and she believes in you. You are her dream come true - make her proud. She is a beautiful woman and we are expecting a miracle.
I am a survivor of seminoma cancer...and it bothers me that chemo worked for me...but not always for others. I have two close friends that are struggling with chemo. It's terrible but continue to be positive and continue to be Nikki Lynette.
You bring flavor and sunshine to everyone around you Nikki. Becoming Nikki...that's the Grand Baby of Granny Bird.
Nikki Lynette said:
Thanx Garrard. i was actually thinking of taping her telling stories, just in case she doesn't make it to see me have children someday :o( The idea of that feels sooooo sick. But it would be awesome to have some footage of my granny, I swear she is the BEST narrator alive. You know how people make fun of how old people tell long stories? Well my granny's stories are NEVER boring. She's so awesome. This is tuff
Logik said:
.... Trust cousin that you have done your part to make her proud and allow her life to be continually honored by the her greatest legacy. Her presence will always be around whether physical, or spiritual more importantly her presence will be apparent in your philosophies. The stamp she put on your day to day activities she will keep her with you. On a side note thank you for being a shining example of perseverance. You make me proud errday Nah Mean!!
Nikki Lynette said:
thanx 4 the kind words :o)
Nikki Lynette said:
thanx Ken. one day this hard life we live is gonna pay off, and we're gonna look back and maybe things won't seem so hard. I appreciate the luv baby, real talk. U know that.
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