I suppose the most difficult thing about my life as a diabetic is the portion sizes. I have never measured my food, I always ate to my heart’s content. You never really realize just how small a cup of food is until you have to measure for portion size. I am allowed 75 carbohydrates per meal, or what is known to diabetics as 5 carb choices. Definitely much less than I was eating before. The simple math is 15g of carbohydrates equals one carb choice. I know I ate at least double that in my former life as a glutton. A giant hurdle for me has been overcoming hunger. I have been “snacking” on lettuce because it will not affect my blood sugar levels. I just wonder how long until I am tired of leafy greens, what then? I spend a lot of my time researching diabetes, I am trying to find more fulfilling options.
When it is time for bed I get excited because that means I will sleep off 6-7 hours of hunger and will be able to eat breakfast. I am allowed a snack at night but only 15 grams of carbs, so I am living on 3 cups of popcorn and for a popcorn lover like myself 3 cups is but a tease. Seriously how I am skinny remains a mystery to me.
With that in mind, never have I ever freaked out about my meals. Now, with every meal I prepare I worry I might be overdoing it or underdoing it. I obsess about it, I do the math in my head and I double check it. Then there are the worries that I might lose even more weight. I suppose all of this worrying is something I should have overcome years ago but, as a non-practicing diabetic, I never did.
I decided to meet up with an old friend for dinner, I was very careful about my choice of meal and played it safe. I opted for the salmon with broccoli and black beans. I did well considering the platter of nachos just begging for my attention and the fact that I love burgers. Not that I cannot eat that stuff I am just not confident enough to stray from my safe diet.
I have been eating a lot more fish and chicken because those have little effect on my diabetes. I already know I love salmon but I tried tilapia over the weekend and did not enjoy it much. I suppose a lot of meal plans for diabetics are trial and error, the good thing is that I will try anything once. I know one day it will become second nature and I won’t have to put much thought into it, in the meantime I will enjoy the food I am allowed and is considered safe. Also I wish my dietician would return my calls.