I have been diabetic for 20 years now, but I have only been a practicing diabetic for a little over a week. When I was a teenager, I felt invincible, I had youth on my side and not even diabetes could take that from me. Then in my 20’s I beat cancer, again the feeling of superhero-ness persisted. I was going to live forever and spit in the eye of my diabetes. I would drink, I would eat whatever I wanted, as long as I had that vial of insulin with me the world was my “all you can eat”. Then last week I got punched in the face. I ended up in the hospital with what started out as getting a gash in my little toe checked out and turned into worries about my diabetes care(more the lack there of).
So there I lay in the ER worried that I really messed up, worried that I would lose my toe and thought of the things I could have done to prevent that. The things that I used to think were tedious and unnecessary, were now the little things I avoided because I was an idiot. The good news was that I didn’t lose the toe, but the hours I spent in the hospital were focused on righting the wrongs of my past and that it is never too late to get healthy. I committed myself to getting healthy for myself first because I love life, we are all blessed with this gift and I have mistreated it for so long it is about time I show my appreciation.
It is not easy living with this disease, but I fooled myself into believing it is more difficult than it actually is. No, I do not like jabbing my finger 4 times a day, nor do I like injecting a syringe twice daily but that is a part of my daily routine now and the satisfaction I get is knowing that I am doing what is best for me. I have a lot that I want to accomplish in life and I plan being around for a long time. I am learning about this disease, doing research and trying to make the most out of it. I am not deserving of sympathy I nor am I an expert. This blog will be a journal of the things I am learning along the way. I am not going to make promises this time around except the one I made to myself. I hope you will share the journey with me and be there to enjoy my success. It has been a long time coming but I am ready to beat this disease and not become a casualty.
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