Heartbreak and Fear

(This post was written Friday, December 14, 2012)

I have been debating all day whether I should write about the topic of being afraid. You see, I don’t want to give you the wrong impression about Puerto Rico. It is a beautiful, wonderful place and I am excited to go and see my family, but the truth is that the thought of being there makes me nervous and scared.

The crime rate inPuerto Rico has always been pretty high, but it seems to be reaching ridiculous levels lately. Every time I talk to someone over there, every time I open the Puerto Rican newspaper’s site, every time I log on to Facebook, I hear about yet another horrible crime that has taken place in the island. It’s not just murders, but lots of break-ins, shootings robberies, and kidnappings.

I seriously considered whether it would be a good idea to take my children there right now. I have to admit that am worried that something might happen to us while over there. I’m not very comfortable at the thought of going off exploring as we usually like to do. This trip, I think we might just stick close to my parent’s home and hope for the best.

Then I opened up the computer to write my post and read all about the horrible school shooting in Connecticut and once again I realized safety just seems to be becoming an illusion. There is no place safe anymore.

It’s bad enough to see this trend of going off and killing a bunch of people before the person finally offs themselves, and it’s not just the random person entering a college or a high school and killing at random. Those are horrible, senseless tragedies, and my heart always breaks for those families that have to deal with the aftermath of these terrible acts.

But what gets me the most are these shooting involving young kids: parents killing their own children before turning the gun on themselves, or this young man going into an elementary school and killing his mother as well as twenty YOUNG INNOCENT KIDS. Why? WHY???? And how could anybody so that? It’s just so unfathomable. So horrendous. So real.

I have no answers in this post, no words of comfort. I am heartbroken for those families, and scared for the future of my own children. I hope and pray that these horrible cycles of violence soon come to an end, that we will be able to do something about them. In the meantime, I’m sticking close to home and keeping my kids enveloped tightly in my arms. 

**Our prayers and thoughts go to the families in Newton, Connecticut.**



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